Long time, no blog!

Well, today I have decided to blog once again. It has been about a week and I just haven't felt the desire to, but today is being pretty boring, so here we go:

So many things have happened since last week. Actually nothing too exciting, but if you want to hear about them, by all means keep reading.

First, I am super excited about the last half of this week. Yesterday was so amazing. Minus the school part, of course. My random 5:30-6:30 class was cancelled!!! YAY for cancelled classes :) Also, I got to go to church and play some wickedly awesome music for Christ and then after Jared's message we all went to Applebee's. That's kind of where things went sour, but not really. I found out that Mr. Goodlookin' (that's what he shall be named as of now) is currently "talking" to another girl in the college class. SAD DAY :(

I have decided that I'm ok with it now, though. I was pretty upset last night because this ALWAYS happens, but I am going to be ok. My life just doesn't have room for a boyfriend right now, and being friends should sufffice. I hope.

So today my wretched Chemistry Lab was cancelled (once again, YAY cancelled classes!!!!) but I had to take mom to the doctor cause she's been pretty sick the past few days. We discovered that strep throat is what was ailing her and got some medicine. We watched Hawaii Five-O upon returning to the casa and she is now sleeping while i am typing this. Tonight is Bible study!!! WOOO! Also, tomorrow i am OFF work!!!! I know, right?!?! That NEVER happens. So I think that Karasyn, Tyler and Ryan and I...... who knows who else.......might go bowlling because i have to make up 2 games for my bowling class. Also, tomorrow Karasyn and I are buying TOMS!!!!! I am soooooo excited! :) Well, in the meantime, I hope you all enjoy your end of the week!!!

Spring Break

WARNING: This will be a long post, because I haven't posted a lot in a while.

This week has been filled with organizing, cleaning and FUN! Yesterday a bunch of us ladies went to the Spring Creek Tea Room in Ozark and then the Ozark Goodwill and then TARGET!! We spent all afternoon shopping and having a lovely time before I had to feed Mrs. Fent's cats and go to church.

I only made two purchases yesterday, both at Target. I bought these two pairs of shoes. Finally. I never find cute shoes and so i broke down and bought some cute ones I can wear for spring. The first pair, which are just some simple navy blue canvas shoes were only $9 and then the cute sandals were $13. I am just glad that I have some cute shoes now. I need to work on getting a bigger shoe wardrobe lol :)

So, after my lovely day of shopping, I went to church around 5 cause the college praise band was playing for the youth service as well cause most of the youth are on a ski trip right now. So we played worship and then all four of us decided to grab some dinner/snackage, but we couldn't decide. Finally after Dustin joking that we all fought like a married couple, we decided on Taco Bell. It was kind of funny because it was the first time that I really felt like we were all in sync with each other and an actual band. I really enjoy being a part of them, or I guess us.  We had a grand time eating tacos and then went to McAlister's to get some tea. After running home to grab my Bible and an extra on for Drew, we played our second round of worship and it was so awesome. I have struggled a lot with not being able to actually worship when I'm playing when I guess I should be able to worship more cause I'm not only worshiping the Lord with my playing, but also my singing. It was the first time I actually felt like I was worshiping and not just allowing others to worship.

I have got stuck in a stinkin' rut again. I hate this. I am in a routine of just going to church and going through the motions and not actually growing. I hate it. I want to grow. I want to become mature in Christ. This is exactly what Brother Paul preached on last night (as i mentioned before, the youth were in Colorado, therefore Jared was too). Being immature Christians. Granted I don't get mad about stupid things and church-hop, but I just settle for going to church. I struggle with making God my first priority. I don't always study my Bible like I should, 'cause I'm too tired or I have too much homework or I get to hang out with my friends. I feel like I sometimes I don't go to church to get closer to God and the Word, but just to socialize because I do have such great friends there. I am so so so so so so thankful for all the wonderful people at Broadway, but it's time I started getting in the Word and praying more. Praying unceasingly. I want to desire to know God better. Know His plan for me. I want that fire in my heart again. I want revival in my life. I know for a fact that I am not the only one who needs this. I pray that every other person out there who doesn't even know that's what they need in their life, will realize this and want it as bad as I do. I pray we can come together and hold each other accountable for this. I have spent too long analyzing every other person's life thinking they need this and they need that. I am only going to worry about myself for now and then follow God's plan on helping others. I pray that I realize how little the things of this life mean. They are nothing. I am going to focus on the eternal things. The message last night really spoke to me and I am so excited about what God has planned for me, if I will only listen.

I am really excited for Bible study tonight. Until then, I must get ready (yes, I know it's 2 o'clock, but I have to do laundry before I can get dressed. Don't judge me!) and I think today I'm going to paint my nails and straighten my hair.

In the next week I want to post a really fun blog about my Favorite Thrift Stops!!

Thanks for reading and have a good week!!

i just really can't believe this is happening

either you are super dramatic and act like everything is the end of the world or you are waaaaaaaaayyyy too forgiving of people. or maybe a little mix of both. i think it's time for me to moooove ooon!

in other news today the allergies weren't too unbearable, but it's only the first day. hopefully my prescriptions will start working soon...........


well, I only wanted to share that one thing. have a good rest of the week!!

sometimes i get upset over the stupidest things

first of all, spring is here and with that comes my stupid alergies. they are terrible, but this morning i started taking all of my meds in hopes of beating this wretched enemy. not so much luck. i feel ok. but i can't taste anything, i can't smell anything and i can't hear anything. this has made my day super stressful. first i got up and finished my room cleaning. i had started last night and once i go through all my clothes to donate i will be good to go. my desk is de-cluttered as well as the rest of my room. i have a few things to donate, a few things to store in the attic and a few things to throw away! i am ready for this process to be finished. i wish my room would just magically turn clean. tonight i HAVE to finish everything cause i actually want to enjoy the rest of my week.

tomorroy all the girls in the family are going to the tea room in ozarkand then the ozark goodwill!!! YAY!!! Then I have to go feed the Fent cats and take care of the animals and then church at 5! I am going to be at church FOREVER!!! tomorrow. lol :) i don't care. it's going to be grand times. then thursday is going to be great too cause i dont have anything at all until bible study that night. then friday, saturday and sunday are going to be kind of poopy. friday i have to clean the Fent house and work that night, Saturday I am working from 8am to 9pm. ICK!!! Then work sunday too. Gag me. I will just have to enjoy the next couple of days.

Well, I have to go to work early today, so i better get going. Have a great Tuesday!!!

bored beyond belief

i am at work once again. its boring here. i have been online dress shopping for my friend laura's wedding. i'm going to be playing the violin and i want to look snazzy when i am playing, and yet match her color choices. she will be using the colors plum and sage. i think they are very pretty together. a little subdued, but pretty. i hope i can find something :)

well, that is about all that's on my mind right now. exciting, huh?

have a good weekend!
another boring day ahead tomorrow!

haven't updated in a while...

beginning of spring break = AWESOME!!! (after classes of course)

My classes got out pretty early and I met Karasyn at Big Mamma's. It was REALLY good. I had never had it before. I got the Jaqueline turkey sandwhich or something like that. I would recommend. Karasyn's grilled cheese looked very good too. So when we got done eating, guess who came into Big Momma's??!  DARREN KING! He was super cool and even talked to me!! I can't believe I know someone so famous! Anyway, after that, we went on over to Red Velvet and the whole gang was there, so we talked for a while about some awesomeness and then I met Karasyn at her house with Tyler.

Tyler, Karasyn and I went to the mall to shop for a prom dress for Karasyn. It was pretty cool. We found the most adorable navy blue dress for her. I hope she gets it, or one like it. Then after dress shopping, I bought a new straightener. Not just a cheap little $15 one i usually get. It's legit. It was $150! I can't believe I spent so much money, but I think it was a good investment. I haven't even got to try it out yet, but I so am when I get home.

Now, I am at work, as usual, bored out of my mind. I am sitting on Facebook, doing nothing, but whatevs.

On a side (and slightly cryptic) note: I am extremely irritated with a certain person right now. Ugh. I don't understand how you could waste so much valuable effort on someone so utterly selfish and terrible. (Sorry, I had to rant.) I still have an overwhelming amount of feelings on the subject, but who cares. If I have to see her face soon.... I am afraid she won't have a face. So she better not show it!!!!!

Well, I think I'm done for now lol :) have a lovely Friday evening and SPRING BREAK!!!!!

well, how interesting?

i haven't posted on here in a few days, which is really unusual for me.... and i'm not going to go into detail what my life is like, but i will tell you this. i am completely overwhelmed with a bunch of different emotions. i kinda just want to me numb to it all for a while. i don't even know which emotions go with which situation right now so i might be laying low for the day trying to get rid of them. i know a lot of you are confused now, but its ok cause i am too and i don't really feel like putting it all out there on the internet today, so for now, i'm not going to talk about it.

today is going to be pretty cool. after school and lessons i mean. we don't have bible study so i have a free evening!!! how wierd! i don't even know what those are anymore!! so i'm hoping we can go bowling or something fun :)

well i hope you all have a wonderful thursday!

i am having a love affair with carbs today.....

this morning i had pancakes at cracker barrel for breakfast. i skipped lunch and had a piece of my breadlike swirl cake and a baggie of cheez-its. then when i got to work they had cookies, a coffee cake, and donuts. ugh. today is not going well. but i am enjoying it emmensley :)

so i really need to be studying for my spanish midterm tomorrow..... oh well.

i felt like i had  lot to say, but i guess i really don't.
you should check out my tumblr it's pretty cool stuff :)

good evening!!

very concerned

today is just a concerning/slightly depressing day. i don't know if it was the weather or what, but i ws tired, emotional and over dramatic, but maybe for a good reason. there have been a couple of things on my mind lately that i just can't get out of my head.

first, i am uber sad that the Jeremy Larson show is over. i know this is silly, but i am. it was a great night and i miss working with him. oh well, though. i will see him again. hopefully soon cause i am thinking about going to red velvet maybe friday or something. who knows?

second, "this" whole situation is so disconcerting. i feel myself being pulled in different directions. such as being a good friend and always being there for that friend, or hoping that "it" does come to a bad end even though ultimately it's what's best for you. she's not worth the pain she's causing you. i hate to see that hopeless look when you think you have done something terribly wrong, when in reality she is the one who has done you wrong. i don't think this is how relationships are supposed to go. you should be happy all the time, and be able to be yourself around her, which you're not. you don't know what happiness being in a relationship is, because i don't think you've experienced it yet. i'm purely speaking out of observation here, and not experience. but still, i am older and "wiser" (HA!) and i can see that all she is going to do is hurt you. no matter how it ends, you will be the one that gets hurt and it breaks my heart. cause you're one of my best friends. not to mention that i had to go and complicate the whole stupid thing with my "feelings" (sorry about the liberal use of quotes in this post) sometimes my feelings get the best of me, but sometimes i just feel like it's right, ya know? like we would make a good team, maybe. i don't know. to me it seems kinda perfect. our lives would be perfect and planned out just right. i really can't see it any other way, but even if it doesn't work out i know that i want you to be a big part of my life, and i hope that you would at least want that too. i am just really confused right now about everything that's happening and i just pray that you follow God's will in your life, and not your own, because even though it may have been His will from the start, i don't think it is now, and i think you see that. please don't believe that this is going to be the end for you and your relational life. you are such an amazing person. you're thoughtful, caring and funny and she doesn't even know what she has. if you do happen to come across this, please know that i will always be there for you no matter what and i'm always praying for you. your family has been like a second family to me and i couldn't ask for better friends, so it's the least i can do.

i'm so sorry if you read that whole thing and are completely clueless. i had to get my feelings out somehow and when i am talking they just get botched by the words "like", "i don't know" and "yeah"..... i am so bad at talking about feelings, but it's good to get it out there. anyway, i think i am just an emotional wreck tonight. maybe a good night's sleep will do me good. i can sleep in tomorrow so.....

goodnight internet world. i will be seeing you again soon!! :D

i hate that feeling of depression once something grand is over...

Last night was Jeremy Larson's Album Release Show. It was a huge success (at least i thought so).

 Only a couple things went wrong. First, Stacy's mic stopped working on her last song, which was kind of awkward cause we still played the entire song, but she is such a pro. Then later, Jeremy's pedal came unattached, but it wasn't a huge deal. Other than those minor details, the show was absolutely phenominal. Celka and Keiran Ojakangas played a couple of solos. They are so stinkin' talented. They are going to be famous some day. I hope I can play with them on occasion. :) Speaking of famous, Stacy and Darren are the sweetest people, and I can't even believe they are like celebrities!!!

So now I can say I have met celebrities, but not only met them, I have PERFORMED with them!!! So in case you weren't aware.... Darren King is the drummer for the band, Mutemath. They are pretty mainstream, i guess you could say. They have at least one song on 88.3 The Wind that I've heard, and their song "Spotlight" is in the movie Twilight. Yeah, pretty famous if I do say so myself! Also, they have been featured on late night talk shows with Jay Leno, Craig Ferguson, and David Letterman. So Darren King is pretty well known and a rad drummer! Just watching him play the drums could entertain me for hours, but I guess I have always enjoyed watching drummers. Anyway, not only is he extremely talented and famous, but also he is like the sweetest guy to work with. He was very polite and constantly complimenting the orchestra. Even backstage he would just come and talk to us, and thank us for playing and everything. He said he was very impressed that there were so many talented players willing to volunteer their time for this show. Also, if you didn't know, Darren's wife, Stacy, sang with us. Stacy DuPree is in the band, Eisley.

I had never actually heard them until this show came up, but I hear they are great. I will for sure be adding them to my list of "to listen to" bands. Stacy's voice, as Celka said, is like origami. She can just fold it into whatever she wants and I really enjoy listening to her. Not only is she talented and it was amazing to hear her sing and be able to play for her, but she was also really sweet. Backstage she went around meeting everyone, asking their names and everything and about them. She thanked everyone for playing and said she was "honored" just to get to perform with us. The honor was ours. :) I have never met two people, famous or not, who were as sweet as they were, and I only hope that another chance such as this can come up again. It would be my dream.

But what am I saying?! Darren and Stacy weren't what the whole show was about!! It's Jeremy's CD that is debuting(comes out Tuesday!!!), and he was the star of the show. Well, what can I say? Jeremy's music is so beautiful!!! His voice is so amazing and the music he writes, divine. I didn't come into this project until about a month into it, but I am so glad I did it. I cannot believe that this opportunity came up. It was grand!! Jeremy is such a sweet person as well, and I am very honored to have worked with him on this project. I really hope I can do this again, because I still can't get over how amazing this whole thing was!!!!! Sorry for going on and on, but this is really something I would like to do in the future. I loved playing that genre of music so much better than classical or any other thing I have played for school orchestras. Not only that, but the atmosphere of rehearsals was so chill. We had rehearsal in Red Velvet on Sunday afternoons and we just played music. Red Velvet is Jeremy's fiance, Elsie's store for handmade/vintage cuteness. :)  Her sister Emma  runs a cute little cupcake/bubble tea shop in the store as well. Did I mention she brought us cupcakes for backstage!??!?! Anyway, to sum up, the entire experience was probably the best musical experience of my life. Not probably, for sure.

After last night, I was kinda bummed 'cause it was over. I wish I could have lived last night for about a month 'cause it was just so great to work with professionals that actually treat you like adults. Anyway, this morning I had to get up early and go to work, so to cure my post-concert depression, I decided to read the blogs of all the Red Velvet people and look up all I could find on Stacy and Darren. Well, what I came up with was a lovely recipe, by Emma, for mozarella sticks!!!! It reminded me a whole lot of the time Karasyn came to Applebee's and called string cheese, "stripping sticks." LOL!!! :D Here's the recipe, though!!!!  Anyway, I have been really killing time today, not doing a dadgum thing. I haven't even had to answer the phones. I have literally came in, turned the lights on, unlocked the doors and been surfing the internet ever since. I'm a bum, but I get paid to be a bum!!! Wooo hooo!!! I hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday, while I sit and daydream about last night :)

The Album Release Show!!!!!!

so last night i had dress rehearsal for the Album Release Show!! Yay!!! I got there at 5:40 and the grand adventrues started there. It was abolutely crazy. You couldn't get in from the front door at all. You have to go all the way around through this creepy little alleyway. Spooky. But after I got there I was intensely excited! The whole vibe was cool. With Jeremy, Stacy and Darren doing sound checks and playing cool instruments. Darren is probably the most talented drummer I have ever seen and Stacy's voice is absolutely devine. And seriously what can I say about Jeremy?!?! He is a flippin AMAZING pianist and singer. Not to mention he can play just about any instrument given to him. The night started well, with everyone getting there on time, but then we had to sit and wait. They didn't start sound checking until about 7 and then it took an hour to do so. Afterward, we ran through Stacy's songs and then filmed them. It was so cool. By that time it was nine and we were all very hungry and cranky. So Darren made a Jimmy Johns run and got us all Turkey Toms!!! WooHoo! After about an hour of eating and such we got back on stage to film Jeremy's songs. We didn't end up  getting out of there until 11!!! Although it was really late, exhausting, and i was so so soooooo sad I had to cancel out on Karasyn, Brooke and Melissa, I had a GREAT time. Tonight is going to be really neat, and if you dont come you are a loser!!!

I am currently at work, letting my yummy Neighborhood Pizza lunch settle before I go clean up the chapel. I'm heading out of here at like 3, but I have to get ready first. I'm going to run through and grab a small snack before the show and then head on over. I am super stoked for this whole evening. After the show, I'm taking Kristi home, but first, a bunch of us(i hope) are going to get Andy's!!!!

Overall Today Is Bomb (sorry melissa lol)

my priorities

sometimes i don't have my priorities in order and then i get mad at myself. for example, until today i had never ever put exercising as a priority. it wasn't even on the list. also, when i should be doing homework or studying my Bible, i am on this sucker blogging to you all. not that it's necessarily bad, but i should be doind better things. well, i need to put a stop to this.

today while i was waiting on karasyn i finished most of my homework for the weekend, so that was pretty cool. also we had lunch and then went to the gym and worked out. it was totally not as bad as i thought it was going to be. like i could totally do that three to five times a week cause i waste most of my time on this thing anyway. i just need to make it a priority. like i feel like i have done really good lately and i want to keep it up. i am still not sure what i want my goal to be though. i'm thinking like maybe losing 50 pounds by the end of summer.... still not quite sure on that one though. according to the Wii i have already lost like 10 pounds in the past week. i'm not quite sure how accurate that is though. my mom and i are going to go to bed bath and beyond next week sometime and buy a really nice scale so we can see how we are doing. i have let things get so out of hand and i intend to get on track(i almost said back on track, but i guess thats not really "back" cause i never was on track). i am so thankful for my encouraging friends, especially karasyn, cause i never could have done it without her.

well, i am now going to go take a much needed shower and get ready for tonight's show........ then i'm going to come finish this post with pictures of my outfit :)  so just hold on about 30 minutes. k? ................................................................................................................................................................................. .................................................................................................................................................................................................. ......................................................................................................................................................................................................... ................................................................................................................................................................................... ............................................................................................................................................................................... ........................................................................................................................................................................................ ........................................................................................................................................................................................................ .............................................................................................................................................................................................

...............................................30 Minutes Later..............................................

(Just so you know, I really did go take a shower during those dot, dot, dots)

and here it is!!!!! 



i feel kinda like a 50's housewife in this dress, but i love it!!!

i'm also wearing some super cute boots i got at the D.A.V. :) i love that place.

on a different note, i have decided that with my birthday  money and my refund money i am going to buy a new swim suit and a new hair straightener! i am really excited. i also need to get a trim.

well, i'm going to get off of here and get ready to go.

have a lovely friday night, and hopefully i will see some of you tomorrow at the show (or tonight!)

busy but grand

i have been so excited for this day to happen for like a month! i have only 2-1/2 classes today. The half is alpha, cause i'm pretty sure all we're doing is handing in our papers and possibly talking about the Convocation yesterday. Also, tonight, I don't have to work!!!!! I have dress rehearsal for the Jeremy Larson show. I'm super duper pysched!!! I get to wear my lovely dress tonight!! :)

I know, i know. I promised you  pictures. Well, as of right now, I don't have time, but I plan on taking them when i'm getting ready before the rehearsal tonight, so later today you can see them.

The past couple of days have been a little shaky on the "diet" plan. I don't really want to call it a diet because I am still eating the things I want to, but just making sure my calorie intake is less. So Wednesday and Thursday I didn't do too swell, but i still didn't exceed 2000 calories, which is normal, plus i worked out on the Wii both days and today I am working out with Karasyn at the gym at Drury. I am pretty excited to actually do this, cause when I'm on the Wii I don't really feel like i'm working out. Today I am going to take it kinda slow-ish. I kinda just want to get aquainted with the equipment and know how to run it. My plan is to do the treadmill at a brisk walking pace for about 20 minutes and then a slow walking pace for about 5 minutes before and after. I think this will be good for starters. It will be a huge milestone to just get me into the gym for anything other than a class, so we will see how it goes.

So tonight is also the Winterguard Dress Rehearsal and I am thinking that maybe after my dress rehearsal and the guard dress rehearsal we can all get together and hang out. That would be really great and I hope it works out. Also, if you were thinking about coming to our dress rehearsal as well, i have bad news. Jeremy doesn't want an audience for this one. He said no guests. So you can all come tomorrow night and it will be fun times!!! Tomorrow night, Kristi is coming to the show and I am taking her home afterwards, but we are going to Andy's before I take her home, so everyone is welcome to come! I am going to have to give up a whole day of food for that, but it will be worth it!

Well, I am headed off to class this morning and will be back later today with my dress pictures!
Have a blessed Friday!!!

Overindulging at night.......not good

So I have decided that since Wednesday night Applebee's is like the only time I get to hang out with people from church I'm going to let myself ignore calorie intake while i'm there. This will be the one time a week i can do so.... And then Thursday mornings will come and I will for sure have to work extra hard, so this morning i'm going to work out on the Wii for a while and then maybe do some strength training. Well, I should get to it. I will be back later with pictures of my Gillioz show dress :)

Have a good morning!!!

dress hunt=SUCCESS!!!!

So last night I was really worried about not being able to find a dress for the Gillioz Show on Saturday, but I think I finally found one!! :D Today, I got out of class at 11 and went to lunch with my mom at Hong Kong Inn. It was REALLY good. I had Hot and Sour Soup and two pieces of plain chicken. I think it was quite a good meal, and then I went over to the D.A.V. to look for a dress. I didn't think they would have one in my size or even in the style I was looking for, but I did!!! It's a peach colored fifties style dress with 3/4 sleeves and a belt. I am going to wear it with a brown cardigan, brown leggings and the cute boots I found at the thrift store.... YAY!!!

So this morning I just had a 100 calorie pack of animal crackers and a bottle of water. Then I had that soup for lunch with 2 pieces of my mom's chicken, but for my snack I went all out and had 2 chocolate chip cookie (300 calories!!!) and a little cheese and cracker thing for 100 calories. Well, the soup was probably around 300 calories totaling my lunch to be about 450, so my daily total, so far is 950, so I am thinking about eating a snack now and then getting something at applebee's, but I will have to look up the calories in their food cause I may rethink. Anyway, I thinking I might get on the Wii before I go to church so I better get off....

Have a lovely evening :)

healthy!!!

This is the first time I have ever felt really and truly motivated to get healthy. Yesterday, as I mentioned before I went and bought some of my favorite snacks! So this morning when I woke up I had a lovely little baggie of chocolate animal crackers :) (they were only 100 calories) and a cup of coffee. Afterward, I got on the Wii Fit and burned 280 calories and then after reaching my goal I played some Just Dance 2 for fun! Then I was really hungry cause I had burned off more than my breakfast so had some yummy lunch of a salmon patty, salad w/cheese cubes and two strawberries :) And then tonight at work I had an apple with crunchy peanut butter (YUM!!) and some cheez-its...... sooooooo here is my total:

 Breakfast:202 cal.
Chocolate animal crackers: 200 cal.
Coffee: 2 cal.

Lunch:353 cal.
Salmon patty: approx. 200 cal.
Salad(7cal.)  w/cheese cubes(120cal.), salad spritzers(6cal.) and salad toppings(10cal.): 143 cal.
2 strawberries: approx. 10 cal.


Snack: 95 cal.
Medium Raspberry Tea (unsweet) from Sonic: 5 cal.
Small Icecream cup: 90 cal.

Dinner: 250 cal.
Apple: 100 cal.
Peanut butter(1-1/2 teaspoon): approx. 50 cal.
Cheez-its: 100 cal.

Total: 900 cal.

So now I'm still kinda hungry, but I'm afraid to eat so close to bedtime. So i guess I will just be hungry for a while lol :) i can handle it. No pain, no gain. Can't wait for tomorrow. Going to Red Velvet to find a dress, and possibly thrift store shopping. Yay!! Then church!!!! and Applebee's!!!

the bad, the good and the longing

so although today started unbelievably frustrating, it was a pretty awesome day. at first i got up to read an emaili i interpreted as me having to go to thursday rehearsals through march. i was really ticked. that was after i had already overslept. ugh. well, when i got to school it wasn't too bad. i did ok in my spanish class and had three (count 'em 1-2-3!) friendly encounters/dialogues with the CUTE Brazilian guy i sit next to. :)

then chemistry went well as usual. i got 100% on my quiz from last week. i was pretty surprised cause i forgot to study that one. then alpha was of course easy, because all we did was satch a dumb documentary. then here comes the fun part. i had a lovely lunch with devin and karasyn :) it was nice to see them and then i went to the store and bought some great snacks and came home and separated them into lovely single servings about 100 calories each. i felt very accomplished. then i went to orchestra, kinda ticked about the thursday night thing, but when i got there everyone told me i was wrong, so guess what?! i don't have to go on thursdays!! YAY!!!!!! Anyway, after orchestra, i went over to jennifer's for her birthday and we had yummy pizza and cake/cheesecake and watched Life As We Know It. I love that movie. So, all in all it was a great day. Tomorrow, I am going to go thrift store shopping for a dress for the show saturday and then go to red velvet and maybe find something there. who knows? i hope i can find something....

so after reading Mandy's blog today (she's getting ready to have a baby) i got that desire to find someone again. I have kinda laid off it (and by laid off it, i mean not obsess over it day and night, i still kinda like some people, but i'm not urgently pursuing things aat this point) lately, but i just want to be able to find a person who will love me for me, i can totally be myself around, will support my choices in going to medical school, will lead me in my faith, who is very kind and compassionate and yet knows when to put his foot down, who i can have serious and meaningful conversations with and yet who can always make me laugh and last but certainly not least who is seeking the Lord every day and praying for me as well. I sure hope I can at least meet this guy soon. I am just way toooo impatient. Well, I think I am going to go to bed now......

But first......... to read my Bible!

happy and sad :)/:(

well, i am happy because i have had a wonderful morning filled with the Word and some wonderful worship with some wonderful people. also, after church I got a lovely invite to have lunch with the Lindsey's, although I had to decline because my mom told me i had to clean my room today and Brandon has a piano recital i am going to. I have gotten my room completely clean and started laundry and everything!! This afternoon is going to be stressfree with a nice recital, a good rehearsal for saturday's show (EEP!! it's so soooon!!!!) and then church again with my lovely friends!! :) I love love love Broadway and I wish I could go every single sunday of my life. That is where the sad part comes in. I am terribly sad that I must work on Sundays and I can't go to church. I love it so much and I think that is the next step in my life is to not be content in just going to church when I can or want to, but to go every chance that comes, and sunday is a BIG chance that I don't ever go to. I think I'm going to have to start fighting for it. I am going to have to fight for my faith and I think that I'm either going to have to rock the boat at work to acheive this, or i'm going to have to quit. That is a HUGE decision that I'm not quite willing to make yet, but I think the time is coming soon and i'm terrified. I really don't want to quit my job but i keep feeling this nudging to do so in order to be able to go to church. I am really going to have to pray about this and to talk to my mom, cause her opinion is really important in my decision making process. Please pray that I will be able to make the right decision and do God's will. I am scared.

Overall though I am having a GREAT day!!! :) I hope that things work out with the job thing, and another thing I can't really talk about on the internet lol ;) but you may already know what it is...

almost getting lost and hong kong inn!!

so this morning i got to sleep in and about 10 i got ready and went to church for college visitation. i was with katie, leah and jennifer (cause basically the freshman were the only ones there besides like 3 other people) anyway, we went to two houses and the first one was really close, but the other one was all the way in willard and i almost got lost. we almost missed the turn cause nobody told me that was the street and then i had to stop really fast and i almost missed it and had to back up and junk. we made it fine, but there was nobody home at either house we went to. anyway when we got back we all ended up going to hong kong inn, MY FAVORITE!!! i did really good, getting only a child's plate of cashew and water. i felt very accomplished and now i think i'm either going to go walk or work on the wii. who knows? maybe i'll play some just dance :)

well, i hope every one is having a great weekend!
thanks for reading!

stairs, wii and a super delicious calorie monster

well, today has been most enjoyable. i did get up early this morning to take my little brother to school and i took him to Hardee's to get a bacon egg and cheese biscuit and while i was at it, i went ahead and got breakfast too. I got this really scrumptious Chicken Biscuit. Totally awesome so so so yummy. Anyway, i then came home and got ready for school and went to class. My classes went about like usual. Nothing too exciting, but i did take the stairs a whole stinkin' bunch. I figure, although i might be out of breath for a minute or two, it's only going to make me stronger. My goal is too get less and less out of breath as the year progresses. I just hate being this out of shape. I have let it get too bad. So I made the first move today.

I got on the Wii Fit for like 45 minutes and burned like 300 calories. It was pretty neat. So I wanted to see how good I was doing, cause I had taken the stairs and walked to Kingdom Come at school and now burned 300 calories playing games, so I looked up the calories in my love before mentioned chicken bisuit. OOOHH MYYYYYY GOOOOOODNEEEESSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was really stinking terrible. 620 CALORIES!!!! EEEEEEEEEPPPPPPP!!!! I can't do that anymore. I would like to cut down on my fast food intake and pay more attention to what I put into my mouth. Gosh! That is my problem. So anyway, this has been a good experience cause now I know and will probably never ever get that sandwhich again as long as i live. I guess it's a good thing i enjoyed it today! hehe

Tomorrow, my plan is to sleep in and get up and go for a walk if the weather is ok. I will have to bundle up cause its supposed to be cold, but I am going to do it. No matter what. I have to now.........cause i still feel terrible about that biscuit.... :/ lol

i'm so happy/excited

so tonight was just great! i love love love our small group cause i feel like i get to know people better. thats also why i love going to applebees. last night was awesome too. i stayed until almost midnight!! and my mom didn't even really care. i love being in college. anyway, tonight we kind of got the ball rolling with our list and each person has an assignment to get info on. i'm also really excited, cause like three or four people said they would like to work out. i'm excited, cause like who wants to go by themselves?? i've decided that i have let it get too far. i'm going to stop being lazy. stop taking the dang elevator for every little excuse, i'm going to stop sitting on my butt all day when i'm at home. things are going to change. i'm going to stop snacking on cookies and junk. i've kind of already started this. i stopped drinking soda again on tuesday. i am just really sick of feeling so unhealthy and i just need some motivation, and i think i know what can do the trick. ;)

on a different note, applebees last night was flippin awesome. we have some good cheap food and i met a couple new people and had a lovely conversation with Caitlin and Lindsey about the cute waiter and how old he was. i'm definitely saying like 25, but they think 27+, maybe even 30, but he's definitely not. oh well, its never going to happen anyway lol, BUT one thing that could....... maybe. now that like everyone knows about it.

anyway, i better get off cause i have to get up and take my little brother to school in the morning. probably be back on tomorrow night, though!

right now i am listening to Burnin' Up. it's bringing back many wonderful memories. i miss high school a wee bit :(

people who don't have their priorities right really irritate me. like seriously, a nap!?!?!?! and basically you are just skipping church (which i don't know if you can call it skipping cause you never come anyway) to sleep. i'm glad to see that God comes first in your life. you could have been a really great witness for your roommate and everything, but no. you just conformed to everything. it's really quite sad. i'm sorry for you. not to say that i'm the perfect Christian or anything, but at least I come when i can, and i still work and get my homework done, and i'm sorry to put it bluntly but i get better grades than you too. i just think it would be nice if you would show up oncein a while. oh and i really appreciate your phone calls in class and not getting my lab report info until 5 stinkin 30!!!


i'm so sorry for ranting..... today is going to semi stressful and then tonight is going to good :)

today has been most lovely :)

today stared off with a bang when i got a 95 on my spanish quiz. WHOOOPIEEEE!!! i have struggled a bit in that class, but i'm going to turn that right around. then i got out of chemistry a little early and i joined my friend, Laura, for lunch at Panera. It was quite refreshing and I am so glad i got to catch up with her. She is another one of my friends who is getting married this summer and she asked me to play violin for her wedding!!!! I'm super excited!! I love love love weddings!!!! :D

then, after going back to class i was done for the day and stopped by the good ol' Red Velvet to grab some lovely cupcakes for my mom and dad and Jeremy was there. we talked briefly about the concert. oh my geezy!!!!! its in like a week and a half!!!!!!!! so fast. anyway i think everyone in red velvet pretty much know who i am now, which pleases me very much. tehe. also, the cupcakes were scrumptious.

then my dad had to leave for the road so i took him to the truck stop and while he was getting ready to leave, he realized he had left his laptop in my mom's car which was on its way to strafford. so i had to go all the way to strafford and get the laptop and meet my dad at the strafford mcdonalds so he could get it. it was really important he had it cause his GPS was  in his laptop case.

anyway, i then went to the car wash and am now writing this oh so intriguing blog lol

i need to practice the songs for worship tonight and check my email. have a lovely wednesday evening everyone!

hear ye, hear ye!!

i have some updates to make...... ahem!

first of all, guess who has another sunday off?!?!?!!! THIS GIRL!!! Guess who's gonna be at church sunday morning :) me. oh yeah!!!!!!!! and i'm off next friday night too for the Gilloiz dress rehearsal :) gonna be so much fun!

also, i did some online shopping today and i am going to show you a few things that i bought :)

1) bought these tights in purple and black :)

2) i bought this dress. for only $11

3) i bought this yellow shirt. i am not sure how i will like it yet, but i thought yellow would be a good color for spring

4) I also bought two v-necks for like $4.86 a piece. wow!!! I got one in this yellow color and one in "avacado green"

i am so excited to get them!!! now all i need to buy are some capris, some rain boots and maybe a straightener. but not all at the same time lol

eh....maybe

now i'm off to finish spanish homework and eat leftover rotel :)