I have a hard time trusting other people and even God. I am a control freak!!! Now that I write this, it seems so silly that I should doubt that God could run the entire universe because he made it all. I am so silly. Anyway, here are a few things that I am struggling with lately.
First, I have been broke pretty much since mid-December, and let me tell you, it sucks. I can't just go do whatever I want, I sometimes have to worry whether or not I have gas to get to school and work. I have bills to be paid, gas is expensive, and one thing that I have refused to look over is my tithe. But sometimes I think, well, I could di this or that if I had kept that money. I am really bad about that. But I know that I should just trust the Lord, and I know that my money is SOOOO much better spent giving to the church and furthering the Lord's kingdom than me going to dinner or buying silly things.
Second, relationships. Need I say more?
And last, I have had a really hard time giving up my health to the Lord. Here's the deal. I love to eat, and I hate to exercise. The thought of being sweaty and gross makes me sick to think about. Anyway, isn't the important thing that you love yourself? I think I do. I'm pretty happy with the person I am today, but I am not content and I think my health is the biggest part of it. Now that I have modified my schedule to fit some neccessary studying, I think I can afford to add at least 30 minutes of some type of physical activity to it. So I think this is going to be my plan, take 15 minutes in the morning, before school, and get on the Wii or treadmill and then 15 minutes when I get home, or before I go to bed. I can totally do this!!!!! :)
So this weekend pretty much rocked! I went to the Disney LIVE! thing at Hammons Hall with my mom, aunt and cousin. I felt like such a little kid and it was great! It makes me excited to go to Disney World next summer (yet another reason to get healthy) ! And then Sunday night I went with Karasyn and Tyler to a little Baptist church in Walnut Grove because he led worship. It was really cool. I am so glad that I have such great friends :)
Well, I hope you all have a great week!
7.2.12
4.2.12
Random things on my mind.
- I love Disney sooo much!!! :) They movies are amazing and I can't wait to go back to Disney World next summer! Yay!!!
- I need to realy focus on eating healthier and excercising. I think I have finally got into a routine for this semester when it comes to homework and studying. I got an A on my first Organic II test, but now I really need to focus on using my time even wiser to exercise. I never do, and it's bad. I need to start in small increments.
- I really really don't want to start cleaning yet, but I'm addicted to the freakin' internet.
- This weather is really depressing to me, but maybe I am just a little moody.
- I am thoroughly convinced that "love" is just an illusive thing that will never happen for me. Also, I am secretly dreading Valentine's Day. I want to spend the entire day locked in my room. :(
- Today I am really wanting every sweet thing. Cupcakes, cookies, anything!!!! I know I don't need them, and we don't really have them. I need to come up with a healthy alternative.
1.2.12
My random and somewhat conflicting feelings on DGB
For starters, how exciting for Hillcrest to have such a desired football player?! I think it's really cool. Honestly. BUT! Yes, there is always a but. But, I have huge issues with sports being so hyped up.
So I just have to get this out.
1. Hillcrest is kind of known for not being great at anything. I guess maybe except for media. They're pretty smokin'! So I think it is really good for the school to be getting attention over DGB and giving the school a reason to have some school pride, BUT on the flip side, the school really isn't getting this. It's only DGB. I think it is so crazy for one person to get so much publicity. And here's the next point....
2. OVER SPORTS!!! Ok, I understand that sports are like the American past time and a huge source of entertainment, but I have a hard time thinking that sports are a talent. It's athletic ability and it's one of those things that you are pretty much born with. I mean, yeah, athletes train and stuff, but it's just too ridiculous that you should get a full ride scholarship for being able to run fast and catch things. I like to compare this to music. Many people are born with the ability to play music well, others practice hours upon hours a day to become good, but let me tell you from experience, no one. I mean NO ONE gets that much hype over being a prodigy at music (Please note, that I am NOT, by any means claiming to be a prodigy). Anywho, it goes that way for scholarships too. The most anyone at my school gets for music is $3,000. Yeah, thats a lot, but no where NEAR a ful ride. Actually it's only about 15% of tuition. And you only get that much if you are like really stinking good. So I guess you could say that I am a bit bitter, or biased on this.
3. Let me also tell you this. People aren't born smart. Ok, I take that back. Some people are. I have yet to meet one, but I have heard that Einstein was pretty intelligent. Anyway, the majority of people who do well in school........get this, it will amaze you..... WORK FOR IT! You know, study and work hard to do well. These are the people in the world who become doctors, lawyers, teachers, businessmen, AKA the people who affect your everyday life. Why don't we give these people recognition? I mean, I'm sure your dentist has had a direct effect on your health, not stupid football players. These poor people who work so hard and do so much for you are not recognized at all, because all the airtime is spent on athletes and movie stars. I guess you could say I'm bitter on this subject as well, because (and bear with me while I toot my own horn) I graduated 4th in my class, I was concert "mistress" in orchestra, I was in band, in FBLA among other things, and my senior year, I wasn't even selected as a student of the month. I recall actually a couple of people who were, aren't even in college. Wow, Hillcrest. You really know how to make a person feel like their hard work is for something. It's really great to be recognized for it. Nope. You're too busy televising the decision of a football player.
So I realize this has been a pretty negative and ranty post, but to end on a lighter note;
I am very happy for DGB. He chose a great school, close to home so he could be close to his family. If you didn't know, his little brother has cancer. Anyway, I am just as much a fan as anyone else. I've been to the games (which are extremely entertaining), I have kept up with his decisions and this will probably be the start of me watching college football, because yes, I think it's kinda cool that I went to school with a prospective NFL player. I just hope that he puts his fame and money to good use. So I guess in conclusion, DGB, I wish you good luck in your future, but Hillcrest, I hope you can live up to your name now that he's gone. Maybe you could invest some more in those hard working students.
If you read that whole thing, you should comment and leave me your thoughts. I mean, come one, you've already wasted this much time. ;)
So I just have to get this out.
1. Hillcrest is kind of known for not being great at anything. I guess maybe except for media. They're pretty smokin'! So I think it is really good for the school to be getting attention over DGB and giving the school a reason to have some school pride, BUT on the flip side, the school really isn't getting this. It's only DGB. I think it is so crazy for one person to get so much publicity. And here's the next point....
2. OVER SPORTS!!! Ok, I understand that sports are like the American past time and a huge source of entertainment, but I have a hard time thinking that sports are a talent. It's athletic ability and it's one of those things that you are pretty much born with. I mean, yeah, athletes train and stuff, but it's just too ridiculous that you should get a full ride scholarship for being able to run fast and catch things. I like to compare this to music. Many people are born with the ability to play music well, others practice hours upon hours a day to become good, but let me tell you from experience, no one. I mean NO ONE gets that much hype over being a prodigy at music (Please note, that I am NOT, by any means claiming to be a prodigy). Anywho, it goes that way for scholarships too. The most anyone at my school gets for music is $3,000. Yeah, thats a lot, but no where NEAR a ful ride. Actually it's only about 15% of tuition. And you only get that much if you are like really stinking good. So I guess you could say that I am a bit bitter, or biased on this.
3. Let me also tell you this. People aren't born smart. Ok, I take that back. Some people are. I have yet to meet one, but I have heard that Einstein was pretty intelligent. Anyway, the majority of people who do well in school........get this, it will amaze you..... WORK FOR IT! You know, study and work hard to do well. These are the people in the world who become doctors, lawyers, teachers, businessmen, AKA the people who affect your everyday life. Why don't we give these people recognition? I mean, I'm sure your dentist has had a direct effect on your health, not stupid football players. These poor people who work so hard and do so much for you are not recognized at all, because all the airtime is spent on athletes and movie stars. I guess you could say I'm bitter on this subject as well, because (and bear with me while I toot my own horn) I graduated 4th in my class, I was concert "mistress" in orchestra, I was in band, in FBLA among other things, and my senior year, I wasn't even selected as a student of the month. I recall actually a couple of people who were, aren't even in college. Wow, Hillcrest. You really know how to make a person feel like their hard work is for something. It's really great to be recognized for it. Nope. You're too busy televising the decision of a football player.
So I realize this has been a pretty negative and ranty post, but to end on a lighter note;
I am very happy for DGB. He chose a great school, close to home so he could be close to his family. If you didn't know, his little brother has cancer. Anyway, I am just as much a fan as anyone else. I've been to the games (which are extremely entertaining), I have kept up with his decisions and this will probably be the start of me watching college football, because yes, I think it's kinda cool that I went to school with a prospective NFL player. I just hope that he puts his fame and money to good use. So I guess in conclusion, DGB, I wish you good luck in your future, but Hillcrest, I hope you can live up to your name now that he's gone. Maybe you could invest some more in those hard working students.
If you read that whole thing, you should comment and leave me your thoughts. I mean, come one, you've already wasted this much time. ;)
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