The Future

I sometimes get really stressed out by thinking about the future. I'm trying to get into medical school for next year, but slowly every door seems to be closing on me. I am still praying that I will get in to medical school this year and not have to take a gap year, but if I do, it won't be the end of the world.

At this point, I have a pretty substantial back up plan, and I'm just trusting the Lord in his plan for my life. Right now, I have applied at Mizzou and didn't get in, and then Des Moines University, and I am still waiting to hear back from them. I would really, really like to go to DMU, but if I don't get in, I'm not going to be stressed. Here's my plan:

If I get in, I graduate in May, move to Des Moines over the summer and start school in August.

If I don't get in, I will graduate in May, try for a full time job in the medical field (preferably, ophthalmology or optometry), retake the MCAT in March or April, apply to Mizzou, KCUMB, DMU, and maybe a school in Chicago, for the second year. I really think if I have to apply again it will look good. I have a plan to improve my application and it will show that I am not a quitter; that I don't give up. At the same time I am going to be applying again to all these medical schools, I will also take the OAT (optometry school admissions test) and start applying to optometry schools. If I don't get into medical school, I will pursue a career in optometry. That way I can still be an eye doctor. I feel like I would still have a really fulfilling career and I can still do medical missions and such.

No matter which route I end up taking, I can honestly say that I am excited for what the Lord has in store for me. I am at a completely content place in my life. God has really been showing me how to rely on Him for everything and to give Him control of my life, and I couldn't ask for anything better than the Creator of the Universe to have full control of my life.


My good friend, Laurie, made this painting for me (in purple) and it is absolutely perfect for what I am going through right now. I have changed so much in the past year, since I have taken a break from this blog. I am no longer clinging to having my way and my plan. I am trusting God to take care of me and lead me where he may.

So much has happened since I posted last... I don't event know where to start!

So I literally just went through and read every post on the this blog since the very beginning, while I was still in high school. All I can say is, wow. I'm really sorry for anyone who read any of that! The last time I posted on here was when I had moved into the Honors House at Drury. My life has changed so much since then, so here I go, to update ya!

- I moved out of my parents house, lived at Drury for two semesters, loved it, then hated it, and then I moved out early so I could move back home.

- My best friend and her boyfriend broke up, twice. With much drama ensuing due to that.

-My best friend started dating another guy, who I truly believe is her soul mate. I love them both to death and couldn't be happier for them.

- I made a new best friend, Rebecca! This is the biggest difference from last year. Rebecca and I like twins, for real. We think the same, we talk the same, love the same things, and much more. It seems like we have known each other since kindergarten, but it's only been like a year!

- I finished my junior year at Drury, which totally sucked. But my junior year of high school wasn't too hot either, I suppose. I also finished the fall semester of my senior year. I only have one semester left! I just finished one of the most rigorous semesters yet, with a 9 hr a week anatomy course, which I aced!!

- I started and am just about done with an internship at the Vision Rehab Center of the Ozarks, which has been a really defining experience in my education.

- I began a second job. It's on campus and is really fun! I also have like the best boss ever.

- I have started the application process to medical school! Still waiting to hear from a school in Des Moines, Iowa. Things are not looking good though. It's so late in the game, I'm afraid they won't have an open spot. I may have to wait and apply next year.

- I have also considered going to school to become an optometrist. This idea is pending.

- Many friends of mine have gotten married and engaged, and some have even moved away. It's weird being the age that everyone's life is changing, when yours doesn't seem to change much, but looking back at this blog, I have noticed many changes not only in the things I've experienced, but also in the way that I respond to those things and my attitude. I hope to be able to keep up this blogging thing because it really is a great way of looking back on what you have experienced; kind of like a diary. I just can't seem to stick with it. Oh, well.