super awesome!!

so in case you have been wondering why i am so stinkin' excited lately..... here's the deal.

1) yes. i joined broadway!!! YAY!!! i can't believe i actually did it. i have to get baptized and then it's official. i absolutely love it at broadway and i really think that's where God is calling me to be right now.

2) i am going to get to play in a super awesome show at the Gilloiz theater in dowtown springfield!!! it's with Jeremy Larson AKA the the fiance of the owner of red velvet!! I LOVE that store!!!!!!! and i am super duper psyched to play in a show with a local musician. it's going to be a truly awesome opportunity!!
also i am meeting him at big mammas coffee shop and i have never been there!! YAY!! i can't wait. i just hope the weather cooperates lol anyway those are two reasons i am super excited right now!!! and i have most of the music nailed down for rochelle and mikes wedding. YAY!!

well i hope everyone has a glorious monday!

i hate waiting.

i have no patience... i'm waiting for a response from a local musician here in springfield. he is doing a show with a string ensemble and i might be playing with him if it's not too late to join.... i REALLY hope i can. it would be a FREAKIN AWESOME oppurtunity. oh and did i mention that his fiance owns red velvet, my favorite store!?!?! MAN i hope this comes through.


i also have a freakin' short attention span. i can't focus on anything for longer than like 10 minutes. homework is very hard to do in ten minutes, but i have acocmplished some things today...

oh well, i better finish studying for this quiz. fun, fun.

OH!!! but before i go...... I'm joining the church tonight! I'm so excited :)

i am getting WAY too into this wedding music thing. i mean i have come up with all the little details. i'm so excited!!! i can't wait to be part of rochelle's wedding and then the next wedding that i know about will be karasyn's!!! :) i am so absolutely thrilled to help her with hers!! i know i say this like every stinkin' day, but it's going to be a blast!! i am just so blessed that i can have the opportunity to help someone plan the biggest day of their lives!! :D

it just makes me excited for what God has planned for my own life. I hope that one day i can plan my own wedding and have my best friend help me :)

well, i must get ready. i am meeting rochelle and mike in like an hour to discuss details!! YAY!!!!

i think i want to see this movie because i like the girl in it and i think this guy is really cute!

patience

i struggle with patience every day. and i mean every day. with little things and big things. like today i had so many errands to run and i didn't get half of them done. first, i didn't get to the bank because i forgot the stinkin' check!! also when i went to get gas, the gas station was full and i had to wait forever to get gas. then i was in line at the car wash and i was pushing it for time and i was stll like twenty cars away but there were like 9 cars behind me too. then, a car got stuck in the car wash cause he didn't pull up on the track right. it was then i decided i did NOT have time to get my car washed. oh well. so i went to sonic to get my drink and that was fine and dandy and then when i was almost to the highway i got stuck by a train!!!!

so i have always thought that when you pray for something, God gives you little tests and i think this was most definitely a test of patience. i think i may have passsed too! cause i totally didn't lose my cool and just went with the flow. i couldn't control any of those things, so what good does it do to worry and get mad over them?

the bigt thing i am really impatient about is finding a boyfriend. i know that sounds so stupid when i type it. i have just prayed a lot about it, but it doesn't seem to do any good. so i take a different approach to  pray for patience to wait for this person and then i get these little tests of patience and i always fly off the handle, but this is different. i hate to say it, but i am going to take steve bell's advice on this. he always said, if you can't control something why get upset about it? it's totally true though. i guess i will just work on my patience then....

errands :)

i love fridays :) especially this friday! fridays are my short school days and i got out and had lunch with my friend hayley from school. i love eating on campus cause i don't have to pay for it!! anyway this friday is so much better cause it's payday!!!! YAY! i have money again. i really need to start managing my money better.  but since i have money i can now do the things i have needed to do for a while. here is my list of errands for today:

1) get gas in my car

2) go to wal-mart and get nutella <3

3) go through car wash and vacuum out car

4) cash check from piano lessons

5) get happy hour drink from sonic :D

then i must go to work!!! fun, right? lol i have got to get it together soon so i can get all this done cause at work i have to get music together to get with rochelle and mike tomorrow to talk wedding music!! YAY!!! i L.O.V.E. weddings :) also, this mean i am going to get to buy a new dress to wear to it!!!! i love fancy dresses :)

speaking of weddings i am so psyched karasyn with hers :) i can't even wait. my mom keeps telling me that i am way ahead of myself. oh well. :)

i guess im going to go run my errands and you will probably hear more form me today cause i am working!!

lovely things

today has been filled with them <3

it didn't start out that way though. i got woken up at 8 (on my day to sleep in) by a phone call from work to come in and fix a dvd. it was irritating. but it did it and i made some extra money, so that's always good.

i need to work on saving more money. i am really bad at it, and if i am planning on doing this thing i'm planning(which i can't tell you yet) i am going to need to save save save. big time. stop letting me spend money!!! i did good today, i just came home for lunch. i think it will be easier with school going on now.

speaking of school, my lab today only went for 45 minutes. and i think this semester will be so much better. also, i had a lovely cheap! iced coffee from mcdonalds. today has been pretty good so far. you know what? my birthday month is only four days away!! YAY!! I love february so much, minus the 14th. ironic i know. i don't think this year will be so bad though. oh well. i am so excited for sunday :) i'm going to join Broadway!!

i seriously want to go to hobby lobby! i have so many crafty things i want to do!! i have a whole bag of cute fabric scraps and i have some sheet music. i think next weekend will have to be a craft weekend.

oh! another reason february is going to be better than january is because i have asked off for the day of my birthday and the sunday after!! i am super excited for a weekend off. :)

i think i might go see a movie.

i really want to see this one even though it is completely terrible moral-wise. i just really like natalie portman and ashton kutcher. they are my favorite actors and i don't think i could pass up seeing them in a movie together.

i also want to make these eggs :)



i think i'm going to do some studying and then i have piano lessons at 4 so i will be busy for the rest of the day...

but it will be good anyway!!

good days ahead

well i am feeling GREAT today :) so much better than last wednesday. so far.

i got to school on time and climbed up the infamous stairs to get to my spanish class. other than being completely lost at the beginning it went pretty well. then chemistry, which is super duper easy ;) and then alpha, also extremely easy. after alpha devin and i had lunch at the commons and then went to fit for life. i think my professor saw that i like to participate in class discussions. that will work to my favor later :)

after fit for life i went to sonic and then when i got home i went on a lovely walk in my neighborhood
today has been such a beautiful day :) i think it has lifted my whole spirit! if my spring is going to be this good i can get used to it!!

bowling and cookies!!

so i had my bowling class today and it was pretty darn fun. i am completely useless at bowling, but it was fun, nonetheless. today we learned the four step approach. it is more difficult than it looks. to me at least. speaking from someone who bowls about a 60average lol :)

so after my bowling class i went to sonic and used my giftcards and then i had to go to work. i had to make like a gagillion DVDs because nobody can do the job right and i had to redo like 20 of them. anyway, i didn't get done on the computer until like around 8 so all i did was clean some windows in the chapel and vacuum two hallways, but i was super eager to come home cause my mom text me and told me i had a nice surpise waiting for me :) ooh!! now i'm curious!

so i kinda booked it home so i could find out what it was!! and it was GREAT!! my mom said some girls from church brought you these and it was a package of cookies!!! oatmeal chocolate chip!! my fave!!! :) and my dad said it was lindsey hale and two other girls and he couldn't remember who else cause he's too old lol ... and he didn't even recognize lindsey lol

anyway, i text lindsey and it was lindsey, katie, and leah!!!! you guys are so wonderful!!! thanks for making me feel so welcome at broadway!!! <3

so tomorrow i think i am going to talk to jared about becoming a member :) i'm pretty excited. this is pretty much my first adult decision. i was nervous at first, but i really think this is where god wants me now.

well, i HAVE to finish my spanish homework, so i will update you all later on life, or whatever lol :)

it's like a party!

well i had a really great weekend and a great monday and today is looking up, too :)
wunday night karasyn and ryan came over and we watched Inception. It. Was. AMAZING!!!! I absolutely loved it! :) I love movies that make you think! Also, last night when I got home from school my mom decided we would just eat pizza and then watch it again!! Yay!!

Well, both my parents fell asleep so today when I got up, my dad had made breakfast and we watched the movie again!! I love it so much. I could probably watch it everyday. So today I have bowling class at 1:30 and then work at 4. Work won't be too bad though cause I am making some DVD's tonight. And probably light cleaning.

So this week is pretty rad so far :)

nutella and frustrations.....go so well together

so my mom bought some nutella the other day and i am in love. :)

it is so good and reminds me of the milk chocolate hazelnut and cashew candy bars that used to be in our fundraisers. so good :)

so nutella was about the best thing about this day. i have been very frustrated today and i don't even know why. i completely lost it with my mom. i was screaming at her one minute and balling the next. i have emotional issues.

another good thing though, is that i bought a cute yellow skillet from a flea market today <3

i have quite the collecting of things now :)

well, i am now sitting at work, very, and I mean VERY bored. bored to tears actually.

so i have this friend on facebook, who i used to go to church with. he just posted a status that said, "I need a girlfriend any takers?"

How charming is that?

Not very.

Anywho, I am not sure what i will be doing when i get off, but am most certainly NOT going home, which is probably not too smart since I have to work tomorrow at 8 o'clock. Fun, fun.

I have a lot more homework than I thought though, so that will keep me occupied.

well, you know, i only have two hours left of work. what to do?? i think i will study.

once again, fun, fun.

this is kind of how i feel today...

why?

this is not pretty.

 since when is beauty being this thin?  

Why is it that the following pictures were not only tagged with "fat" but "ew" and "gross"

I personally think these women are beautiful and stylish.

i really hate society. skinny people think that fat people go around all day eating triple cheeseburgers and watching tv. well, did it ever occur to you that some skinny people do too???

another thing that irks me to the core is that over half of the pictures tagged with "fat" are pictures of miley cyrus. seriously? if thats fat, i have NO HOPE.

seriously. i can see trying to be healthy, but a size zero isn't healthy for everyone.

and every woman is uniquely different and beautiful in their own way.

in the words of my (non-hottie) grandma...

"pretty is as pretty does"

so so very proud :)

First off, I SURVIVED!!! My first week of the Spring semester, that is. I wasn't sure if I could. Wednesday was just kind of stressful. I made it though, and it kind of ended off with a bang in my book. Mom and I went to lunch at Mexican Villa and went Flea Market shopping :) My favorite!!! :D And I got a super cute metal tray like the ones on display at Red Velvet that are super duper expensive. Mine was only $1.75!!! I love finding bargains. You could probably say that I'm addicted to it. I have spent way too much money this week, but I have many more things for my future house/appartment :)


Anywho, I am now at work and putting off studying for just a short while longer. Facebook is depressing sometimes. I hate seeing everyone else's status' about having fun plans on Friday night and seeing their "wonderful" significant other posts. If you can't tell them in real life or in private that you think they are awesome and the best thing that's ever happened to you, why do it for everyone to see?? 'Cause we really don't care. Or maybe that's just me. I don't care about reading every gushy comment from you that comes into my news feed. Seriously! Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest. And for the most part, none of you do it. There are just a select few that drive me CRAZY!!!


So I am not really sure where my life is leading me. At all. I don't feel like I'm doing anything productive. Yeah, yeah. I'm going to school, but I am only in my second semester of about 16. I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere. And I certainly am not any more independent than I was in high school. I still feel like a kid. I still act like a kid. I am overly dramatic. I get super-duper jealous over silly things. I argue with my 13 year old brother. I can't focus for very long. I have NO self-control. I am just overall immature and I hate it. I need to work on growing up. And to stop letting stupid things get to me. . . . . . . . . . like that.

The only thing that has changed since last year is that I am even more close to my best friends. And I have chosen my own church. Ok, so maybe I'm not as dependent as I was last year, but still. I just really want things to finally work out.

Speaking of "work out,"  I have vowed to be more active this semester. Last semester I got into the habit of taking the elevator too much and I was just overall really lazy. Well, I do have Fitness For Life as a class this semester and I am vowing to not take the elevator. The reason this is such a big deal is because on regular days I have to climb like 10 stories of stairs. This is not fun for me, but I think it might get easier. Like this morning I had to climb 2.5 flights of stairs to get to spanish and I thought I was going to pass out 'cause it was in one of those old buildings with really steep stairs. Well, after going to chemistry, i had to go right back to the room that my spanish class was in and climb those stairs once again. I didn't get as winded the second time. Also, I want to use the gym at school, but I am kind of self-conscious. I would like to go with a friend, so if you want to work out at a free gym, just let me know!! I even have a really cute water bottle for working out :) Another thing that will help me is the Wii. I'm pretty psyched for that too.


Well, tomorrow I am going to SLEEP IN!! and then I am going to watch Hawaii Five-O!!!! YAY! I L.O.V.E. that show. Probably just as much as Days of Our Lives. :)

Good evening everyone. And HAPPY WEEKEND!!!!

makeover!

so last night when i got home from school i gave my desk a makeover. i took out a bunch of junk i never used that just collected dust and i just redid my study area. also, i redid my shelf by my door. instead of the lamp and flower arrangement, i put a plethera of candles on it and put up a coupld of my bargain picture frames on the wall. i love empty picture frames. :) Here are some pictures of my room.

 This is my cool two dollar chair from the salvation army thrift store :)

love love love <3

my bed was a tad bit messy, but i have TWINKLY LIGHTS!!! :D

well, i just found the COOLEST thing on my computer. It's called Microsoft OneNote and it's like a notebook on your computer with tabs and everything. I am very intrigued by it :)

 

my new desk area :)

well, i am officially addicted to blogging

i think.

Hong Kong Inn with Hottie Grandma soon :)

ya.

be jealous.

first day.... i'm not sure.

I know that first impressions are a lot. And my first impression of this semester was that it is going to SUCK! It's gonna be hard, and I am going to have to get my act together. No more spending hours on blogger/facebook and going to applebee's after church. I am going to have to get serious about studying and i'm not looking forward to it. Oh well, yesterday was pretty good.

Yesterday morning I had to get up early to take Brandon to school so when my mom came home we went and got Starbucks (thanks to my bestest friend!!) and then we went to the thrift stores by that starbucks. i got some good deals. i got a bunch of old picture frames. I'm kind of into old wooden picture frames. I think with a coat of paint they can be such cute wall pieces!! Anyway, I also got this really cute vintage-y yellow kitchen chair from the salvation army thrift store for two dollars and I love love love it!!! It's so cute. Well, I now need to reorganize my desk and get ready for this gruesome semester.



stay glassy! ;)

yesterday was a really wonderful day. in the morning morning i got up early-ish and got ready so i could go flea marketing with karasyn and her familia. it was grand times!! i found so many things! and when i got home, i realized a lot of what i bought was glassware :) that's ok! so the first thing we found was this set of sherbet cups that we are going to use to craft together a cake plate!!! YAY! And then I found the perfect plate for it. I also found some super cute yellow tulip plastic tumblers!! :) And i found just so many things... i can't explain them all, so i took a picture.

well, today i start classes (actually the only class i have is bowling, so it won't be too hard, but tomorrow my real classes start) so i better get off. i need to reorganize my desk and go to the bank. i also need to go to the book store today and get my books..... fun.

well, right about now my mom and i are going to go to starbucks! see ya!!

today is much better :)

well, now that my mopey pity party day is over i'm going to share some of the pretty things i have found today. i wish that i could buy everything i want, but i also love the thrill of hunting for a bargain!! like at thrift stores and flea markets. i think i am having flea market withdrawals, so i will probably go to some tomorrow :)

anyway, here are somethings i adore today:

Elsie's wedding blog This is the cutest thing ever and I when the time comes I want to make one :) If you didn't know, Elsie is the owner of Red Velvet on Commercial Street. She is engaged and her sister, who will be her maid of honor, is making this wedding blog with her. I think it's super cute and a great idea!! Love it!!

 I'm love love loving this sheet music wrapping paper. I know the holidays are over and everything, but you can drop the bells and add more colorful ribbon for any occasion. Like birthdays!!! (*ahem* i do have one coming up :) lol just kidding) I will probably do this cause i have more sheet music that i never look at anymore, than you can think of! Great idea!!

This is a cute picture. I love all the books :) I think Karasyn's book store should look like this <3

(the above pictures are from elsie's blog, linked above)

This is elsie. I have never noticed her tattoo before today, but i think it's really cute. normally i'm not fond of tattoos, especially ones in very plain sight, but this is so cute.  you can tell that red velvet means a lot to her. i am so glad karasyn showed that store to me :)

(the below pictures are from weheartit.com)

this is so cute if you had a little girl who loved to read. i was totally that kid. :)

This is a cute bookshelf, too <3

I want a cute journal for my birthday i think. I found some really really cute ones at Borders, but I couldn't find them on their website :( or i would post a picture....

(except for this one. it's a google image)

Here's what theykind of look like, but the store had some cuter designs...

Sweet verse <3

Well, I think that is all for now, and since i'm at work, i should probably do just that. Work.

Have a great Sunday everyone!!!! :)

lonely

i have a very lonely job. i sit around by myself most days. doing computer work. most of the time i like my job. today i am not very fond of it. i have messed up things lot lately, not just with my job. like, why do i always keep my feelings to myself? i do that way too much. and then i can't tell anyone. sometimes i feel so lonely.  like no one wants to be with me. i hate feeling like this and i know it's not true, but i can't seem to let myself think otherwise.

i hate saturday nights. i really do. i'm stuck by myself while everyone else is out having a grand old time with their friends and significant others. saturday night, you suck. sundays are not too bad, but i have to work all day and can't go to church on sunday mornings. oh well, gotta do what you gotta do, i guess. at least i can go to church.

so, i have been kind of an emotional wreck today. ugh....

so school starts this week. i think i am ready. i hate being bored and alone all the time. i'm kind of sick of life today. if you can't tell. i'm sorry, for being so negative, but really. what do i have to be positive for? nothing, really. or at least today i don't. i'm going to get off of here before i bash my head in. ugh. maybe tomorrow will be better.

that's it.

last night was a big bowl of fun!!! i went to karasyn's to have chinese!! it was delectible!! :) then we had sone yummy cheesecake my mom made and we watched jonas :) like the perfect combination of things :)

today, there's not much going on. i'm going to lunch and then i have to work. fun fun!!

same tomorrow. nothing until 4. but tomorrow night i think papa and i are going to steak n shake after work :) i love doing that.

then sunday, guess what? more work!! but then church :) i love going to church. especially with my favorite people in the world. :)

lazy day

i was up late last night cause i went to applebee's after church, so i was pretty excited about sleeping in, then my mom asked me to drive my brother to the bus stop so he didn't have to stand in the cold this morning. alright. i got up at 630 and i was sleeping really well. so when i got back in, i didn't go back to bed like i planned. i got dressed and did some computer stuff. nothing too productive. if you remember, i still have 5 days left of break. anyway, i was planning to go to the library with my mom cause i have a cd on hold and then get panera, but she didn't want to. she wanted to take a nap, so i did too. i just woke up from that nap and i am now going to straighten my hair and go to lunch with my mom.

i am going to karasyn's tonight for chinese food. i am so stoked!!! i love chinese food, and i love karasyn and her house(hold)!!! :D  i do have to give lessons first,  but i'm not sure if they are all coming, so i may get done early. who knows? it doesn't matter, though, cause i am so excited.

we had a lot of fun yesterday. and last night rocked. i got to church around 6 to practice with the college praise band. i was a little nervous cause it was a new song. new songs make me nervous. i really love playing in the praise band, i just still feel a little uncomfortable sometimes cause improv and chord work has never been my forte. i am really lucky that i found a way that i can serve in the church though and that has been good for me. last night was rough though. i got there at 6 and i was playing on new equipment and that messed me up big time. i was nervous and i told brendan he could just play it and drew was all, "do you really not want to play?" i told him i did i just didn't know the song and him and brendan are so good, i just feel out of place sometimes. so then at 630 i went down to the youth service to hear Tyler's message and it was amazing. it was all about using the gifts that God has given you. i was wowed. i couldn't believe that not 20 minutes after my almost giving up on playing that Tyler had this amazing message and i felt totally revived (if that's the right word) to go back and play my best. we went back and practiced a little bit more and prayed and then had some great worship. sometimes i can't believe how awesome we sound, and it's all thanks to the Lord for our gifts. i don't ever want to take mine for granted again. also, Dustin gave a great message and then we went to applebee's to have some great fellowship :)

i love going to broadway. i am feeling more and more certain about joining. i am so blessed.

oh and this is my tumblr.

well, i am going to go straighten my hair now.
bye.

that's right.

i started a tumblr. after i made it i was like, "wait a second. why did i do that? what am i going to put on that that is different from this blog?" well i figured it out.

this blog is going to be like my journal type thing. i will talk about my life and maybe put some pictures of things in my life right now, but i kind of want a place to put pretty things i like and crafts i want to do, or cool things for karasyn's wedding i find and that will be the place. i am pretty excited. soi might post some cool things on here, but for the most part it's just gonna be my life. and if you want to see cute things, you should follow my tumblr. the end.

today

well, i have had a grand day!!!

this morning i got up and went to breakfast with my mom and dad before my dad had to leave and we ran a couple of errands. then i came home and got ready to have lunch with karasyn at NEIGHBORHOOD!!!! :) Karasyn's lovely mother joined us and it was an extravagant occasion. Then, we proceeded to Red Velvet for CUPCAKES!!! :)

this was my snickerdoodle cupcake with the super cute fork that they give you :)

i really want to look up cute decorating ideas and stuff and post them, and make a tumblr, and do all sorts of fun computer things, but i forgot i have to learn a song for church tonight. i better have it done cause i am making rehearsal difficult already cause i want to go listen to tyler's message at youth tonight.

well, i best get to that music now :/

tonight is going to rock!!



neat-o

karasyn's tumblr is neat.
i kinda wish i had one.
but i always copy her.
and i feel bad.
so i probably won't make one.
but, i will emensely enjoy reading it!

on another note,
work wasn't too bad tonight.
i got some new music.
that's always good.
and i am looking forward to a great tomorrow.

well, i am going.
going to watch Days of Our Lives.
it's intense.

i really don't

want to go to work tonight....

i wish i could go to karasyn's. :(

BUT, we are hanging out tomorrow! which is great! i am so excited! karasyn means so much to me. i don't know what i would do without her and tyler and ryan. my life would consist of boredom and not much else. i love hanging out with them and playing just dance and eating muducks (however you pronounce it) lol

i love all of my other friends too!! just to name a few, kelsey, bethany, llindsey, jennifer, leah, sarah and katie! (and everyone i know at broadway!!!) i love you all!! i am so grateful that god has given me you all. i don't know what i would be without my amazing friends! :)

<3

well, well, well

today started out pretty sad. first of all i was so pumped about sleeping in and i woke up earlier than i had all week. then nothing on tv. crap, no saturday morning tv. so what do i do? i do laundry. stinkin' laundry. at least i have kept on top of my laundry and not let it get as bad as it was. anyway, while doing laundry my mom is talking to my dad on the phone and he tells me to get my money out of the bank for him to fix my car because if you didn't know, my headlights don't work. oh, and he also wants me to get him one of those free little sticky calenders for him. after going to the bank and all, my mom and i go to taco bell to eat and then we went to dairy queen because they had super cheap treats!

when we got home my mom gets a text from her friend asking her if she wants to get a pedicure, her treat. that was really sweet, but i felt really left out and i then proceeded to get ready for work. first of all, im pretty darn broke, my day hasn't been to eventful and now i have to go work. ew. well i did. and now i'm here.

the exciting thing is though, that about 5:20 my parents come walking in to work and my dad had fixed my car!!! and it didn't cost me anything!!!! YAY!!! that means i have an extra hundred dollars!! :D and so my day uplifted one hundred percent!

when am i going to learn??? i stress out over stupid things.

i think i am going to look up more wedding things!!! <3

i really want to....but

have you ever really wanted to do something so bad? you knew you needed to? for your own good? for the good of others? ..................................BUT.

that word. that wretched word. But, you just can't bring yourself to it. there are a million reasons why you can't. maybe you're afraid of what might happen. maybe you aren't ready. you are unsure of what's to come and you like to be IN CONTROL. you want things to go your way and letting go will show WEAKNESS and VULNERABILITY. well, in the Lord we have control and are strong. i need to surrender to the Lord, completely. I have control issues. I like to know what's going on and I can't stand to be "out of the loop." I only wish I knew where He was going with this. I feel lost, afraid, unsure, irritated, cheated, and most of all, alone. I know that I shouldn't, but in my weakness, I am strong.


That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:10

Three reasons to avoid setting New Years Resolutions

The past few days, people have flooded to the gym, ordered salads at restaurants and bought excercise equipment, but for many of us,  New Years Resolutions are an INCREDIBLE waste of time. Mostly because we know that in two weeks we are going to backslide, but for a lot of people New Years Resolutions are ineffective anyway. Here are my three reasons that I will NOT be making a New Years Resolution this January:


First.  I made my resolution on December 1, therefore giving myself a month head start on the whole thing. There are a couple of advantages to doing this. If you start on December 1 by the new year you have already past your slump and therefore will be more successful in the new year. Also, if you can survive the holidays with your new resolution, you can certainly do it for a year!

Second. The second reason I will not be making a resolution is because making a resolution implies that you are not happy with yourself and that is certainly no way to enter the new year. I know that they are supposed to "better yourself", but saying that you want to change and that you are not happy with the way you are now gives the devil a foothold to make you backslide in your resolution.

Third.  Lastly, I am not going to give in to society. I don't know where this whole new years resolution thing started, but why do we have to on January 1st? Why does it have to be a new year to make a new you? I did notice someone saying that the gym would be busy for a couple of months. I rather like starting my resolutions on December 1st, actually and I am not doing new years resolutions anymore.

Well, in case you didn't know, my resolution was to quit drinking soda. I made only two exceptions which was the holiday (Christmas) and our vacation, which I only drank one Diet Coke. I have done pretty good and I think starting early was really effective! Yay! So, I wish you all the best of luck with your resolutions and I commend those of you who started resolutions that did not have to do with appearance, such as losing weight, but yet soul searching ones.

well, tonight is church and i must go get ready for it!

i have decided..........i think

i guess you can never be 100% sure about a decision, but I think i'm as close as i'm going to get. I believe i will be joining Broadway and making it my church home. :) i am pretty excited about it because it is really my first adult decision.  i am not sure when i will officially do it, but i think i am ready. of course i am scared because i am branching off from my family's church and i no will no longer have my family with me, but i have kind of already done that. my mom is supporting me though. she said they would for sure come and see me get baptized. that makes me feel a lot better. i guess i should just go ahead and do it, but i still have this nagging sense of doubt, which is probably due to the devil. urgh. i hate that guy.

anyway, i think i'm going to do it. and soon. also, i just wish i could get over being sick. its ruining my life today. i think i'm going to go take a shower and see how i feel after that. 8)

i think i'm addicted to the internet.......

here it is

i need to tell you something. you probably already know it, but i need to tell you anyway. i can't tell you online but i will tell you in person, maybe, soon.....

i want you to know really bad, but i don't know if i do, ya know?!

i hate making decisions!!!! URGH!

i feel like blowing my brains out!!!

not in the suicidal way, of course. i think i might have a sinus infection or something. ick.

i just took some NiQuil though in hopes that it will knock me out. i told my mom i could just drink some Vodka or something and she wouldn't let me. go figure lol :P

well, church tonight was awesome as usual. i really need to look at my life from the outside, now. i feel like God is really calling me to stay at Broadway, but i am having a hard time officially breaking ties with Antioch. i am seriously considering joining Broadway though. just pray for me, that i can make the right decision for me.

also, i am super excited for the next two weeks, 'cause guess what?! i don't have to go back to school yet!!! YAY!! and this week is going to be filled with sleeping in, going to church on wednesday and getting to go to applebee's (YAY!) with karasyn (DOUBLE YAY!!) and then possibly going to karasyn's for chinese and i am going to have lunch with bethany i think, just catch up before she goes back to florida. it's going to be good times......................and great oldies. hehe :)

well, since i am sick and i had to get up early for work this morning, i think i will go to bed.

have a wonderific week everyone!!!

dum dum dah dum!!

I can hear the bells now!! Ok. So maybe I'm jumping the gun just a bit, but it never hurts to plan ahead, right? Well, it doesn't matter, 'cause I'm really getting into this!!

I love love love wedding pictures and planning things, and since Karasyn said I could help, I'm doing my homework early!! :) I want Karasyn and Tyler's wedding day to be the most perfect day ever (second only to my own wedding lol). I know! I know!! They aren't even engaged yet! BUT that promise ring is pretty darn close, so I'm going to run with it! I am so excited for them!!!

There are many many factors that go into planning a wedding, so I am going to need a lot more to go on, but I am pumped and ready. I am going to do my best to make it the least stressful, most memorable day of their lives because they are my friends and I love them and that's what friends do!

There is but one down side to all of this. As happy as I am to be helping my bestest friend on the biggest day of her life, I am awakened again to the fact that I am single. Don't get me wrong, here. I am not sulking or wallowing in self-pity, but the longing I feel is simply a reminder that doing things on my own doesn't work. I must fully rely on God to fulfill that emptiness. Anyway, now that I am done "reflecting," I will move on. :)

I thought these little bouquets were the CUTEST!! I love the sheet music!! Well, as I find more things I will post them, but for now I will leave you with this:

I found it humorous.

lol

Last night was awesome!

Just goes to show you that you do NOT have to drink and do bad stuff to have a good time.

I have the best friends in the entire world and I want them to know it!!!!! I am so glad that my parents decided to show up. I really had a great time last night at Karasyn's playing games and such with everyone. I love the Inglett and Lindsey families! They are my favorite people in the world! (Besides my own family, but seriously, sometimes I would claim them over my own family lol) I just don't know where my life would be without them. I am so glad that I started going to Broadway. I mean, I think Karasyn and I would still be good friends, but I really don't know where  I would be right now if I hadn't started going to Broadway. I mean, there just isn't anything for my at Antioch anymore and although I love my Antioch family, I have to go somewhere that is filling me spiritually, right? I believe that I have grown a whole lot since I started at Broadway. Not to mention the great people there.


Back to my friends, though. Karasyn is my best friend in the whole wide world and I don't think I could live without her. That sounds kind of creepy doesn't it lol Well, it's not. I can talk to her about anything and we always have a TON of fun. Now, I don't want to exclude my other friends, because they are extremely important to me as well and I don't want to make it look like I only have one friend lol

I have amazing friends and they are all awesome!! You just sometimes get closer to others. There is a song that comes to my mind. For Good from the musical, Wicked. Here are the lyrics:

(Glinda) I've heard it said


That people come into our lives for a reason

Bringing something we must learn

And we are led

To those who help us most to grow

If we let them

And we help them in return

Well, I don't know if I believe that's true

But I know I'm who I am today

Because I knew you



Like a comet pulled from orbit

As it passes a sun

Like a stream that meets a boulder

Halfway through the wood

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?

But because I knew you

I have been changed for good



(Elphaba) It well may be

That we will never meet again

In this lifetime

So let me say before we part

So much of me

Is made of what I learned from you

You'll be with me

Like a handprint on my heart

And now whatever way our stories end

I know you have re-written mine

By being my friend...



Like a ship blown from its mooring

By a wind off the sea

Like a seed dropped by a skybird

In a distant wood

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?

But because I knew you



(Glinda) Because I knew you



(Both) I have been changed for good



(Elphaba) And just to clear the air

I ask forgiveness

For the thing I've done you blame me for



(Glinda) But then, I guess we know

There's blame to share



(Both) And none of it seems to matter anymore



(Glinda) Like a comet pulled from orbit

As it passes a sun

Like a stream that meets a boulder

Halfway through the wood



(Elphaba) Like a ship blown from its mooring

By a wind off the sea

Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood



(Both) Who can say if I've been

Changed for the better?

I do believe I have been

Changed for the better



(Glinda) And because I knew you...



(Elphaba) Because I knew you...



(Both) Because I knew you...

I have been changed for good.



It is like the sweetest song of friendship and I love it! I can't believe we disliked each other so much in elementary school lol but I am so thankful for our friendship and I am so happy for you and Tyler!!! You guys are awesome and I can't wait to share with someone someday what you two have :)

For now, though, I am content finding my relationship with God and loving where I am, with great friends and family to back me up!

Well, I just thought I would bring in the new year by talking about the things I am thankful for. :)
Thank you everyone for making 2010 one of the best years and I pray 2011 will be just as good!!!