patience

i struggle with patience every day. and i mean every day. with little things and big things. like today i had so many errands to run and i didn't get half of them done. first, i didn't get to the bank because i forgot the stinkin' check!! also when i went to get gas, the gas station was full and i had to wait forever to get gas. then i was in line at the car wash and i was pushing it for time and i was stll like twenty cars away but there were like 9 cars behind me too. then, a car got stuck in the car wash cause he didn't pull up on the track right. it was then i decided i did NOT have time to get my car washed. oh well. so i went to sonic to get my drink and that was fine and dandy and then when i was almost to the highway i got stuck by a train!!!!

so i have always thought that when you pray for something, God gives you little tests and i think this was most definitely a test of patience. i think i may have passsed too! cause i totally didn't lose my cool and just went with the flow. i couldn't control any of those things, so what good does it do to worry and get mad over them?

the bigt thing i am really impatient about is finding a boyfriend. i know that sounds so stupid when i type it. i have just prayed a lot about it, but it doesn't seem to do any good. so i take a different approach to  pray for patience to wait for this person and then i get these little tests of patience and i always fly off the handle, but this is different. i hate to say it, but i am going to take steve bell's advice on this. he always said, if you can't control something why get upset about it? it's totally true though. i guess i will just work on my patience then....