attitude reflects leadership and i hate double standards.

So we had a meeting at work tonight all about how we have to start cleaning the building more and getting crap done, but we've had this same meeting like 5 times and the same thing happens, the people that clean, continue to clean and the same people that sit on their butts continue to sit on their butts. But, the only ones that get recognized for cleaning are the day people who are here when the boss is, and the evening people don't get recognized for any of it, because they don't see us do it. Well, that's exactly how we lost our last person. you know, i would be fine with it if they didn't do the exact same thing they accuse the owners of doing. oh well, i guess i just shut up and do it, because that's what i'm getting paid to do, right? and it's not like it's that hard anyway.....

This week meme and papa have been out of town so I'm house/plant-sitting. Karasyn has been out with me and we've had fun watching movies and making bacon and cinnamon roles for breakfast :D

now I'm doing a pinterest craft! I'll post pics when I'm done!!!

COMING SOON ----------> THE WEEKEND!!

Enjoy it!

Today I am excited!

Today I went to Hobby Lobby and got out of there only $2 poorer than when I came in! Amazing I know! It's basically only because that's all I had.

Anyway, I bought yellow paint to match my new room and this plaque that I painted to put my instagram photos on! The plaques are only $1.33, so I'm going to buy a bunch, and probably mix em up with different sizes and put probably 16 of them on the wall like a collage! I also have great idea for the lamps at the new house! I have an old brass lamp I got at the Goodwill and I'm going to spray paint it yellow and get a cheap white lamp shade and voila! A brand new lamp! I'm also going to spray paint the desk lamp I have right now to match the new room! I am so stinking excited! After payday I am going to have so many cute DIYs to do!!!!

I am also really excited to go through everything I have bought through the past couple of years and sort it! But first, I must do laundry :(

On the bright side! I think my mom and I are going to the Tea Room tomorrow, which is my fave!!!!!

Well, now I'm looking for either one word to put on my wall in wall art or a phrase/sentence/etc....

Any ideas?!

pedicures and printing

This reminded me of Karasyn and Joe Jonas. The inevitable couple :)

"You are beautiful not for the shape of the vessel, but for the volume of the soul it carries"

<3 I must remind myself daily

I think I have mastered that!

The colors of my new room! Can't wait to decorate!!!

This is soooooo me! I wish I had money to buy stuff at Target....

Right now I am listening to Somebody That You Used To Know by Gotye. I LOVE it so much. I love the beat and the techno-ish background to it. It reminds me a lot of MGMT. Well, I forgot my tennis shoes this evening and I can't go downtown cause walking would kill me in the shoes I'm wearing. I gave myself a little homemade pedicure tonight! It was pretty fun :)

Now I need to print off sheet music for orchestra this fall! My day has been quite productive! I made $25 on my old desk today! My uncle and cousin, who I haven't seen in like 10 years came and bought it today. It was nice to chat with them :) I also did some laundry, got my paycheck, paid my car insurance, got a full tank of gas to go to fair grove tomorrow night for AFTERGLOW, turned in my late library book, paid my fine and checked out Slaughter-house Five, the next book on my reading list. I'm about halfway done with The Devil in the White City, which I would highly recommend!

I'm by myself again tonight at work and afterward I'm going with Papa, so that will be good!

Thanks for reading!

♪♫ brianna ♪♫

The Never-Ending Summer

Ok , so it seems that summer has already been like 4 months longs, but it's only been like 6 weeks. It just seems like it has been forever because I started a second job the first week of summer and have only had like 7 days off since. BUT! Yesterday, I talked to the greenhouse and told them I didn't want hours cause I have to pick up hours at the funeral home cause two people quit, and then at the funeral home last night I talked to my manager about getting the schedule worked out. I think my schedule for the rest of summer is going to work out quite nicely! I'm going to get every other weekend off and be able to play in orchestra at church! YAY!

So now I actually have free time to do the very long to do list for this summer. I have been so busy that I haven't been able to even organize in my head what things I need to do before this summer ends, so that's what I'm going to do with this post..... here's the list!

1 ~ sort through everything I have bought for my "hope chest" which is actually enough to fill up four or five hope chests. i would like to take a sort of inventory so I know what all I have. Then I need to pack into boxes the things I want to take to the Honors House and then pack into storage containers the things I want to save for when I move out on my own. This should keep me occupied for at least a week or so. From this I also want to see what I need to buy before I move.

2 ~ find some shadowing experience!!! I only have 8 more weeks to find some! I need like 80 hours more! I'm kinda stressing about that, but it will all come through hopefully.

3 ~ print off all of the music I am going to need for SDCO and Chamber Orchestra. I want to seriously practice this summer before school starts and secure a good seat in auditions!

4 ~ I need to get back to studying for the MCAT... that went by the wayside....

5 ~ Save the rest of my money for Mexico and find my Spanish Bible.

6 ~ Have lots and lots of fun for the next 8 weeks!!!!! :D

Hope your summer is going great and being productive! But only if you want it to be!

so random...

This is perfect!

I don't like Lady Gaga too much, but sometimes I would have to agree... sad as it is.

HA!!!!!

I have to keep telling myself that one.

My little brother has been saying this a lot lately lol making fun of people who don't pronounce their words correctly lol

SO TRUE!

That's how I felt when I came into work today, but I talked to my boss and all is good. Today has been kind of frustrating. I didn't get my paycheck like I had planned so I'm broke and I still haven't paid my insurance. I don't know what I'm going to do after work tonight....

I'm kinda mad cause I forgot my book, so I might just go home and read. I'm so exciting, I know! I can't wait for Sunday night! Church and then Afterglow! Woohoo!

Anyway, hope you have a great weekend!

what a girl wants

This is how I feel about a certain person at the moment:

Words of wisdom:

This is great:

This is sooooo me! : 

Some days I desire to have a boyfriend so much I can't even take it. I hate being alone. I hate seeing others getting married or being in happy relationships. I hate reading those "Cute Date Ideas" on pinterest. It makes me sick. I hate even looking at myself because I think, wow that's why no one wants to date you. I know this is ridiculous. I hate feeling that way, but in this society it is so hard to feel good about myself. I desperately need God's strength in this. I know this is going to make me stronger eventually, I just feel like the "training" is never ending. And I'm just too much of a planner to be ok with not knowing who I'm going to be with or when.

Some days I think that if I want anything in this world I have to go out and get it myself. Like school. I work hard to get good grades and to build my career. It's not just handed to me. So then I wonder, must I do that to even "earn" a relationship too? I just hate sitting back and not doing anything. At least if I'm failing a class I can go to the professor, study harder, what have you. In this, I am completely helpless. I can't talk to boys, I am not super funny or good looking. What in the world can I do?! I try praying to just give up because, really, what good will it do? No one will ever like me. They never have! What's to freakin' like?

The thing is, I'm not afraid of being single forever. I have plenty of fulfilling things in my life. My family, my friends, school, my job, church. It just makes me sad to think that I could spend my life not ever knowing what that companionship will be like, and that if I do, it will be too late.

I don't talk about this much anymore because I know worrying and whining about it will do no good. I feel this way less and less every day and I do a pretty good job of hiding it when I do, but I just had to get it out today. I'm not depressed or anything. I just have a desire that God has yet to fill and that I'm anxiously and sadly, doubtfully, awaiting. Most of the time, I do so much to keep me busy so I don't have to deal with my feelings. That's probably not good.

Anyway, as I'm writing this I'm seeing how pathetic I sound lol

Thanks for reading....

5 weeks later

So I have been on summer break for officially 5 weeks now. It is at this point that I have finally recovered from the past school year. After school I swore I never wanted to see a science text book, microscope or lab coat EVER again. Now that's different. I'm finally wishing I had some free time to go back to reading and studying for the MCAT and I also am ready to start thinking about books, classes, SCHOOL SUPPLIES and such I need to stock up on! I'm thinking about quiting my summer job here in a couple of weeks in order to get ready for Mexico and start going through things and sorting what I need to move and what I need to store at home for another year.

Right now, this is the most exciting thing going on in my life. Tonight I'm going to Neighborhood with Karasino and later downtown to evangelize with our college/youth group. Then back to work tomorrow for a 10 day streak! Ugh!

Well, have a great Saturday and enjoy your summer!
♪♫ brianna ♪♫