I have decided that I am completely content with the situation as it is. I just understand that although I may not ever be "in a relationship" with you, I still want you to be an important part of my life. I mean you still are, aren't you? We still talk and it feels as if nothing has changed....

I want to be really good friends and be able to talk to you and vice versa. I really value your friendship and although I sometimes would like it to be more than that, if the Lord does not will it, I want to follow His plan for my life...

With that said, I will get back to doing nothing i guess.

Tomorrow I am going to go to the store to get ingredients for my homemade salsa and possibly get sparkling grape juice.

Whether I have to work or not, tomorrow night is going to be GREAT!!!!

:D

Old people make me mad sometimes.

Old people that need to retire really irk me! If you can't remember something so simple, then stop working!!!!! Oh and it really irritates me when people specifically ask you a question and then they don't even listen to the answer. It would have been better to NOT ask the question to begin with!! URG!

Ok, so now that my rant is over.....

I  am also a bit irked that I am going to have to work Friday night. I am hoping that it will only be until 7 or so. I mean it's not that big of a deal and I knew there was a possiblilty I would have to work, but it is irritating that no one finds it to be important or pressing. You know people, I have a life!!!!!

Ok so maybe my ranting wasn't over....

anyway, I am now going to tell you of the grand deals I got while in Branson with Karasyn. I only have a couple of pictures, but I will upload them as I get them. :)

1) The first bargain I found was some jewelry at PacSun. I got a really cool necklace and then everything in their store was buy one get one 75% off!! So I got some really cute bobby pins!!!

2) My second bargain was at Old Navy, if I remember correctly...

I got two really cute water bottles, one for my cousin and one for me. They were only THREE dollars!!! I only took a picture of the one for me though :)

Also at Old NAvy I found a really cute butterfly dress!! And the straps were a little long so I sewed them up!!!! It was like my third sewing project and I did it all by myself!!! I am very excited to wear it to church Sunday night!

3) The third good bargain I got was at Victoria's Secret. It was a gift set of five different body sprays. It was on sale for 40% off!

4) The last one I can think of is my ten dollar purse from Charlotte Russe. It was originally 32.50 and on sale for 10 bucks!! It has a lot of pockets too!!!! It's super cute!

Well, I had a great time while in Branson and found many a bargain and I am excited for the new year.

:)

And Karasyn, I don't find it annoying when you talk about Tyler. He is a really amazing person and I am so glad you found him! I won't say that I'm not jealous sometimes, but I am completely happy for you. And I consider him a great friend too! :) I can't wait to help you plan your wedding!!!! (If you let me, that is lol)

BEST DAY EVER!!!

I now feel like I am an adult!!! Karasyn and I went to Branson for two days......all. by. ourselves. Yes, that's right!! By ourselves!!! It was so much fun!!!!!!! I had the most amazing time of my life and I feel completely refreshed.

Back in like September or October we said we were going to, and I am completely surprised we stayed with it! But it was seriously the best two days of my life! And Friday night is going to rock. By the way, my mom was really happy you guys asked her to come too! I am glad, because last year was really depressing for her....

Anyway, I will tlak about my bargain purchases later. For now, some Wii and Days of Our Lives. :)

I just wanted to check in and let you know, for anyone out there that you are awesome and i like you!!!

:D Happy December 28th!!!!

finally

i have everything for christmas bought. i have one lat minute thing i need to find, but other than that, i am good to go. i just need to finish making some of it. :/

so this book I'm reading is really awesome. thank you karasyn for suggesting it to me :) it has opened my mind to a really neat perspective of myself. anyway, i am super excited for tomorrow. i mean, who isn't? sunday i may need to do some last minute things, and i hope i can leave work early.

tonight: christmas eve service at antioch and our tradition of eating at ziggie's afterward. then to come home and finish our christmas eve ritual of reading 'Twas the Night Before Christmas and The Christmas Story. And then to bed. And wait for Santa to come!!! :)

well, i need to go finish up making some gifts. Merry Christmas everyone!!!!!

despite the raging mood swings, I am feeling quite happy today. I really like my new boss. Yesterday he asked me if I wanted to work today because I am not working on Christmas Eve just to make up some hours. That made my day! I was going to be all by myself anyway, so why not? Anyway today I got some pretty fresh flowers and a cool tote bag from a nice lady at work and from my boss a candle and chocolate!!! YAY! I really love my job. I do! It's so easy and even the work isn't hard.

My Christmas is going to rock!

I am also reading a great book that Karasyn recommended to me. The title is Captivating. I am excited to read it, I think it will be very good for me.

Well, I have to do some laundry and get ready for tonight. Singing to the old people!!

Why is it I always fall for the guy who is in to astronomy?

you wretched fool!!!

i can't believe you have already said that to her!!!! You guys are like 12!!!! Well, not really but practically!!

it is never going to last. you don't talk. you don't see each other. i mean good grief you can't even drive.

i'm not sure i can handle a whole lot more. i don't even feel like i can talk to you anymore. like its against the law now. thats why i was afraid about the other day, but that was really fun. now i can't stop thinking about what it meant to you and how it meant somethings else to me. i can't handle this anymore. maybe i should be honest, but look where that got me last time. absolutely nowhere.

im done. i can't even look at you anymore. i thought i could handle it, but i can't. i absolutely hate the thought of you with her.


i'm sorry. i want nothing more in the world, than for you to be happy, but i don't have to watch you be happy with her. i will walk away, and pretend nothing ever happened. that i never knew you. the end.

why is it that i feel so much like hope brady?