Life is sooooo complicated!

AAARGH!

so just when i thought everything was fine and dandy in the life of Brianna,

BOOOM!(yes it deserves 3 o's)

I realize that, yet again, i like someone. It never works out so i dont know why i even bother, plus it doesnt help that i have a guy-ish gay friend who likes the same person. So even though this boy is cute i dont think anything is going to happen.

Also, at the precise moment i was about to give up on my athiest friend, he suddenly appears at church. Not to come crawling back or anything. He was only bringing his brother but its still a step. But then, i just cant understand why anyone who has been a crhistian would want to turn away from god and decide to deny everything he grew up with.

sooo....i talked to him. i planted a seed. i told him that i cared, and that god cares too, but he denied god once again. but he did tell me that he would try to come to church more. Its a step!

Anywho- i could use a lot of prayer and my friend, whos named jake, could use A TON as well. Thanks you for listening to me complain and rant.

I am done now.

Who was that shape in the shadows?

Who's is that face in the mask?

I am currently listening to Phantom of the Opera. I haven't listened to it in ages, but I quite enjoy it. I forgot how much i loved that movie. I have decided that when/if i get married my honeymoon is going to be to New York and I am going to see The Phantom of The Opera on Broadway. It is now my aspiration.

I just can't imagine how extremely AMAZING that would be. Not just the Phantom of the Opera part, but the honeymoon in New York aspect. AWESOME!

I want some cookie dough. I am like a little kid today. I have like no attention span, i can't stay on task, I forgot to zip my back pack and Ryan had to do it for me, seriously. LITTLE KID! Oh not to mention the fact that i giggle and ocassionally cackle loudly at least every ten minutes.

Im not saying that I am having a bad day, but I am not getting anything done today. I wish i wasnt at school......im not feeling well either.....

Oh well, i have to work tonight then only one more day left in the week!

Well, Im going to balance my checkbook now.

Adios

wow :)

I just got accepted into Drury!!! It was on my e-mail and I'm pretty darn excited :)

Also, stop being so moody please. I dont understand you most of the time and you dont have to be so mean about it. That really kind of hurt my feeling(to put it simply)

Also, i am listening to Clayton Risner. He went to Hillcrest and he gave us a concert today. I bought his cd and the guy that was with him, Travis Flynn. They were pretty darn good! I like them a lot.

Well, I am going to get off and do some calculus now ....

Goodbye

life is impossible......

without jesus.

I dont know what to do. My life seems to be soooooo complicated, but i just need to pray about it and would appreciate your prayers too....

If you want to talk, or hear me talk lol ;) just text me or whatever.

Bri

The beginning of

the end....

The end of high school.

The end of being a child.

The end of being dependent.

It all starts now. Senior year.

So what am i going to do with it? I haven't decided yet... I know that I am taking many difficult classes, doing many extra-curricular, starting a new job, and am going to be busy every night for the rest of my life... But then what? I need to start thinking about the future and where I am going. I am going to college, but i haven't decided which one, yet. Oh well, I will decide soon enough.

Also, just because I am a senior, does NOT give me the right to act demeaning towards others OR make me better than them. If I do act like that, please let me know. It drives me nuts to see that.

So I am really excited about my new job. Although it is a tad creepy, I love it :)

Well, since only one person reads this I guess I shall go. Back to research for the color purple.

( My re-vamped senior picture )
8 ^ ]

Struggles...

I am still feeling down about it, but getting over it.

I still don't know where to go from here with THAT. It's a wierd situation....


Youth Symphony pretty much rocked my socks off ;) yeah i will actually practice this year lol


Uh....yeah.
Band still sucks.

i am not ok...

things aren't going good.

first...
just don't come around.

second...
it would be nice to have some real friends

third...
there is nothing in the world that can make this better besides leaving.

ok. im going to sleep it out and try to feel better about things. church is tomorrow so maybe i will feel better by then. I need some prayer though.