knowing

so i have decided what i want to do with my life.

i want to be an ophthalmologist

i have been going back and forth with it forever, but i think thats what god wants me to do.

to have the power to give people the sight to see all of gods creations is going to be AMAZING!

its just such a long goal.

also.....im thinking that is what i should focus on right now. I think that god is trying to tell me to stop focusing on other things(*cough *cough.......boys...*cough) and to just work on school and building a God-honoring career :)

It would be nice to have someone to share all that with though.

but i really do want to wait for that ONE that god has planned for me :)

i will really hate it if he just keeps dangling it in front of me though.

oh well...what can you do to the creator of the universe lol

anyways......that it all for now.

pondering....

everytime i am around him i am so happy and giddy and he is such a great guy and funny too.

hes like everything i want, youknow except for that one thing and im beginning to think that one thing doesnt matter anymore....

i just wish i could know if he felt the same way.

????

Flowers

so i work at a greenhouse...

family flowers to be exact. i really like it and i love enjoying the beautiful flowers!!!

you should visit me sometime :)

i spend entirely too much on flowers....and my mom hates it, but at least my house is pretty now

Uh........

yeah......

btw......thats the endeing of a jobro song!!!!!

BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!

um. ok.
so my grandma is paying for half of our tickets and my grandpa is driving us!!! along with my mom and hottie grandma!!! LOL! that will be fun!

and i just ordered the tickets and yes we are actually going and no its not a joke.

unfortuanately.... they were a tad bit more than we anticipated but still reasonable!

I can't even believe it!!!! SOOOOOO EXCITED!0

Why?

Why don't you talk to me? you don't even look at me....

Yeah, you've changed :)

Really.....a lot

I'm sorry. I still feel the same way :)

you will never change the way i feel about you, no matter how much you want to ignore me.....i still love you, like a friend. i dont think you ever believed me....but i do.

YAY!!!

Tonight was amazing.

Our furst runthrough was the best.
(wow.....really i havent been spelling very long lol :) )

so afterwards, me and melissa talked. It was so nice to catch up :)

I love all of you and i am really looking forward to tomorrow! Yay! Starbucks and Kayla!! lol

Love yall!

Bye!

I will...

pray..

for everything. i need prayer as well.

i need to move on , but before i can do that i must talk to all of you.

i honestly can say i have changed. or atleast i think i have.

thank you so much for actually talking to me. you have no idea how that made me feel.

i love you all. even after what you said, because yes it was my fault.

i am still working on it.

Kayla. I have so much fun talking to you in band and outdoor living.

if anything i think we have been better friends now....

and carrie thank you as well. you are amazing and a great role model! I am so happy for you! you have no idea....although i am a little jealous, but not enough to care lol :)

karasyn! STARBUCKS!!!!! WOOO HOOOO!!!!!

i love everyone of you. seriously.

i must go now, and cut my entry short, but i will give you more later!

GOODBYE!!!!