well, the last post was kind of pointless.

This one is better. :)

I went to Wal-Mart today!!!! EEEEEP!
I got a BRAND NEW CELL PHONE!!!!
And a good peek :)


He is so adorable and I can't even help it. I don't think there is anything he could do to make me not like him. I don't know why I like him so much but everytime I see him my brain doesn't even know how to function. I get all wierd and giddy. I need help.

So, I just don't know how i would live my life without seeing him, but yet i can never get closer to him cause i am so immature and wierd around him. HECK! I'm immature around anyone. lol

So to wrap this up, I would like to say that I love my new phone and I love this guy.


You know who it is. :)

limits

in an effort to overcome my busy schedule, i will allow myself only one day to get on blogger and two days a week on facebook. no more than thirty minutes total for all three times. now email i must because i email myself assignments and i get college stuff on, but limiting myself to only ten minutes for each online visit will be it.

lets see how this works. goodbye for a week :)

it's sad when you sit on facebook for an hour waiting on one person to pop up in the chat box.

complications....

so this makes things a little bit complicated.

i can't believe this.

you like him, i like him. he doesnt like EITHER of us. grrrr.

so there.

i dont know what to do.

i hate highschool. and immature girls.

Feelings.....????

ok....here's the deal. i have like a million and one different feelings running in my head right now... and they are all about different things too.

1st- I am really proud of everyone in the musical and proud of myself. I am so childish sometimes i make my self puke. I threw a ginormous, childish, and utterly ridiculous fit about not having a microphone. Yeah. I didnt have a microphone. I waited four years and never got one. I thought I wasnt important enough for one, but the thing is i stressed out over nothing. I was loud enough. I had a great time with everyone and i know this is selfish, but I was astoundedby all of the compliments i got. This is the thing....I doubted my abilities and I thought I wasnt good enough, I thought i needed compliments when really I just needed to be confident in myself. In turn I just became arrogant. So I had to come back to earth and I think that getting sick constitutes coming back to earth.

2nd- I am sad/happy/relieved/regretful about the musical being over. I am sad because it is possibly the last production i will ever do in highschool, happy because i have my life back, relieved that i can sleep now, and regretful because i waited til the last minute to realize that i love some of these kids. i really love them.

3rd- i am extremely confused about what school im going to next year.... i am just not even goin to talk about it cause i am stressed about that enough.

4th- I have people in my life that have GIANT issues that I cant solve but i have been praying for a while. I also want dakotah to know that even though things ended quickly wih you i hope you dont give up on everything. Dont place all that faith in one person, because even though I love this person just as much or more than you do, people will fail. I do, you do, we all do. God is theonly one in this life whom you can completely trust, so trust him to lead you through life and chose the right one. Because I know you are a great person and i love you. Just know that God has everything plannd for you. Oh! I cant wait for it to be just us in concert band :)

So last but CERTAINLY not least- I have been really descouraged in the whole relationship area, but like i said before, i want to trust in god that he will bring me the right person( AKA matt cox :))

Well, I really should go home and do english home work. I love you all!!!!!!!!!!

going to the chapel and we're gonna get married. :)

I am getting married. To the most wonderful guy in the entire world :)

His name is Matt and I would say more, but I don't want to put his full name on here just in case it pops up on google (karasyn....) soooooo yeah hes awesome.

AND I'm gonna marry him someday :)

welll.....

do you really want to know? i will warn you that this is an extremely complain-y blog and i bit emo. Please bear with me.

I am kind of depressed right now. I am totally sick kof being single. I hate it. I'm sick of not having one person I can just confide in and spend time with. URGH! Anyway. I am also sick of other people being together.

PLEASE dont get me wrong. I love you both EMENSELY and you are totally cute..... just call me jealous.

SOrry i just had to get that off of my chest. Thanks :)