waiting...

i want to tell you that you are wasting your time.
i want to tell you that it will never work out and its not worth your effort.
i want to tell you that no matter how much you hope, it wont happen
i want to tell you that you shouldnt wait for someone who would not be willing to wait for you,
i want to tell you that they may not, but i do

but

what am i doing?

im wasting my time
it will never work out and its not worth my effort
no matter how much i hope, it wont happen
i shouldnt wait for someone who isnt willing to wait for me
and most of all,

i want you to tell me that you do....

tonight

there are so many mixed feelings about the events of tonight....

for one it was the homecoming game and it rained cats and dogs! The band couldn't even really play....but im gald we didnt have to stay late, and no morning rehearsal tomorrow morning! YAY!

But also, it is really hard to stand and watch the person you like sit and swoon over a freakin boiled potato!!!!!!! URGH! What can i do to get noticed? Im already too loud and abnoxious... and this other person is just really throwing me for a loop. i mean i am happy with this person's friendship, but if things were like they should be we would probably be together......
oh well....

I also really enjoyed coming home and taking a steaming shower, wearing sweats, watching It's The Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown, and drinking hot chocolate :)

All in all a pretty good day.....oh and dad can stay another day too!!!!


ONLY TWO MORE DAYS!!!!!!

appology

im sorry for being such a downer... my life is really not that bad, and im way too dramatic. idk.
and im sorry for being so sassy. yeah i have an additude and i need to stop. and i really do appreciate my mom..

i love you all :)

facebook

sometimes facebook can bring so much joy to a person....
and other times it can be a bummer.....

just my luck!

dissappointment+failure=my life

Life is sooooo complicated!

AAARGH!

so just when i thought everything was fine and dandy in the life of Brianna,

BOOOM!(yes it deserves 3 o's)

I realize that, yet again, i like someone. It never works out so i dont know why i even bother, plus it doesnt help that i have a guy-ish gay friend who likes the same person. So even though this boy is cute i dont think anything is going to happen.

Also, at the precise moment i was about to give up on my athiest friend, he suddenly appears at church. Not to come crawling back or anything. He was only bringing his brother but its still a step. But then, i just cant understand why anyone who has been a crhistian would want to turn away from god and decide to deny everything he grew up with.

sooo....i talked to him. i planted a seed. i told him that i cared, and that god cares too, but he denied god once again. but he did tell me that he would try to come to church more. Its a step!

Anywho- i could use a lot of prayer and my friend, whos named jake, could use A TON as well. Thanks you for listening to me complain and rant.

I am done now.

Who was that shape in the shadows?

Who's is that face in the mask?

I am currently listening to Phantom of the Opera. I haven't listened to it in ages, but I quite enjoy it. I forgot how much i loved that movie. I have decided that when/if i get married my honeymoon is going to be to New York and I am going to see The Phantom of The Opera on Broadway. It is now my aspiration.

I just can't imagine how extremely AMAZING that would be. Not just the Phantom of the Opera part, but the honeymoon in New York aspect. AWESOME!

I want some cookie dough. I am like a little kid today. I have like no attention span, i can't stay on task, I forgot to zip my back pack and Ryan had to do it for me, seriously. LITTLE KID! Oh not to mention the fact that i giggle and ocassionally cackle loudly at least every ten minutes.

Im not saying that I am having a bad day, but I am not getting anything done today. I wish i wasnt at school......im not feeling well either.....

Oh well, i have to work tonight then only one more day left in the week!

Well, Im going to balance my checkbook now.

Adios