Why?

Why don't you talk to me? you don't even look at me....

Yeah, you've changed :)

Really.....a lot

I'm sorry. I still feel the same way :)

you will never change the way i feel about you, no matter how much you want to ignore me.....i still love you, like a friend. i dont think you ever believed me....but i do.

YAY!!!

Tonight was amazing.

Our furst runthrough was the best.
(wow.....really i havent been spelling very long lol :) )

so afterwards, me and melissa talked. It was so nice to catch up :)

I love all of you and i am really looking forward to tomorrow! Yay! Starbucks and Kayla!! lol

Love yall!

Bye!

I will...

pray..

for everything. i need prayer as well.

i need to move on , but before i can do that i must talk to all of you.

i honestly can say i have changed. or atleast i think i have.

thank you so much for actually talking to me. you have no idea how that made me feel.

i love you all. even after what you said, because yes it was my fault.

i am still working on it.

Kayla. I have so much fun talking to you in band and outdoor living.

if anything i think we have been better friends now....

and carrie thank you as well. you are amazing and a great role model! I am so happy for you! you have no idea....although i am a little jealous, but not enough to care lol :)

karasyn! STARBUCKS!!!!! WOOO HOOOO!!!!!

i love everyone of you. seriously.

i must go now, and cut my entry short, but i will give you more later!

GOODBYE!!!!

hmmm....

i really need to be getting ready right now...

oh well lol

so last night was soooooo WET!

i dont like being so wet, but oh well...we did a run through with people actually performing!!!

i am excited for this week...

you know what?

i actually think this is going to work! :)

But yeah.... Thanks.

thank you....

kind of surprised me...

it's just one of those steps...

i need to talk to you though.

and you. and you. and you.

yes i have A LOT of things to clear up!

long week ahead

but God is there for me....as always :)

songs...

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreamingI woke with this fear
What am I leavingWhen I'm done here

So if you're asking meI want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on this surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself

I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are


So putting song lyrics seems to be a fad, and I am willing to conform :)

I really want to make things better, and I definitely am willing to work at it.

So, I need to talk to you. I will. I swear. I will make myself do it. I will not back out and just settle.

I need God's help in this and I need support.

Thank you Bethany for your good advice :)

New Life

"Go, stand in the temple courts," he said, "and tell the people the full message of this new life." - Acts 5:20

I am trying.... give me a few months.

I have a game plan.

God give me the strength to do this and the right friends to guide me along my way :)

Thanks, guys! I love you