i feel like i have so much to talk about, but i guess i really don't. i'm at work today and we have absolutely NOTHING. i'm going to go insane. the only thing i can see that needs to be done is vacuuming the lobby. it's quite strange not having anything to do. i think i'm going to study for my chemistry test a bit more.
this weekend was good and bad all wrapped up in one. i am experiencing some epiphany of my own life. i am realizing that i am basically on my own. i have my own dreams and i am totally going to achieve them. i will NOT give up. i can't give up. i have to do this for myself. i am so completely excited to start my life, even though i have like a bajillion years before i can start my career. but i can't rely on anyone but myself for this. and the Lord. people are going to let you down, that is why you can't put your trust and faith in people. it's sad, because that's what we naturally want to do, but God is the only one who is always there for you. i am finally seeing that i don't need a bunch of friends, a bunch of places to go all the time and hang out and i don't need a boyfriend to make my life worth something. my life is already worth a lot in the eyes of the Lord and even in my family. i don't need those things to define me. my work ethic, my intelligence and my faith is enough for me.
sorry that was really vague, but whatever. i just got to thinking the other day how some people think they need a man to fulfill their potiental or they need a bunch of friends they can go party with to make them feel loved. well, i'm an independent woman and i don't need those things to make me feel a certain way because God fulfills my life and I know he loves me. like i said before, people will let you down, but the Lord never will and I am so stinkin' thankful for that!
"i can watch a sunset on my own" -kate nash
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