Tonight was good for me.

I think i'm finally ok with this. i am so ready for friday. last final. last day of school. first evening of break. i am so ready.

today is the first day i stop regretting anything. i cant necessarily say that i am happy about things, but i am not mad or upset anymore. i am indifferent. not in denial. just dont care. i dont care. you do what you want with your life, its not up to me. im cool with whatever. i have chosen my path. im going to be in school for like ever and you are a disfreakintraction. i dont need you. wait. i take that back. i do need you, i just dont need us to be together or anything. i want to be friends and i have accepted it as that. that is all. i have decided thats best.

maybe thats my deal. it a control issue? nah! lol well, i am really excited for friday and i cant wait for my final to be over!!!! and i cant wait to get my dress and for the party! its going to be a blast!!! :) VERY EXCITED!!!!! Oh and did i mention i don't have to work friday?!?!?!?! :D I'm pretty happy today!!!!