if you are reading this, don't worry. i am 99% sure it's not about you

what happened? where did we go wrong? i saw you today and you acted like we were mere aquaintances!! like seriously, where did this whole thing go awry??? we had big plans, and now the two and two have gone their separate ways-ish. i don't understand. with that said, i'm not sure i wish it would have worked out the way we planned. i can't handle that all the time.

on an entirely different note, i am so happy. i can't wait and i am so excited. :) though, i am still not going to tell you. not yet anyways.

so that's what happens, huh? i open my big mouth and it doesn't hurt anyone, but me. i am so stupid!!!! gr. i wish my brain didn't work like that, sometimes. others, i'm glad it does cause i don't have to study for tests a whole lot which is fortunate. i don't know why i said that, so don't ask! lol ;D

well, on to bigger and better things. i went to hilcrest today and mrs r is going to alter my dress for the christmas party!!!! YAY!! I was afraid that it wouldn't work.... the dress is really cute. it's a short sleeved dress. it was floorlength, but that's what she's changing, with some other things. anyway, it has an empire waist and above the waist it is made of a velvety black fabric with silver sparklies on it and below the waist is silky black and it will be just below the knee :) i'm so excited! ! ! ! ! !

imagine this dress with sparklies in the top and shorter and not on this skinny dope lol ;) jk

well, i have some documents to redesign for work. so best get to it!